Fears..... people have many fears in life. I have acouple that weigh me down also. But those fears of mine stem from past experience and situations I found myself in that I could not handle and did not have any control over. My fears are based on loss or to lose... To lose something so dear to you, and I couldn't stop it or prevent it. Oh and my fear of injections. But, thats is based on a bad expeience... *shivers* ugh I fucking hate that. But do I let my fears still slow me down when it comes down to something important... Fuck no.... I'm to much of a fighter for that... my fears piss me off and I refuse to surrender to them.. I don't understand why I would not do something cuz I'm afraid... Whats the worst thing that could happen... Pain... Death... even worse.. Rejection and emotional suffering. Fuck that... I can understand not everyone is like me that I would fight and fight and so on till I drop dead.. But if something and someone that you care for and need and such is in trouble or whatever... would you let fear get the better of you... Would you let fear stop you from doing what you know is what you want and need to do... would you let it interfer with you enough to make it that you would never know what it is like to fly or let it make you miss an oppertunity that may make you happy... I hope not... I know it does... Fear is strong but I think we as a human race that have a beautiful thing called a mind and will power can over come anything... Just need to try... and that goes for me too.. I need to over come my fears and move to the future.. I need to stop worring about it and move down my road. I will find a way and make myself and the people who I care about happy.. Fuck it..whats there to lose except time , and maybe death... depends what I'll aim for... Oh and another Fear of mine... My fear of being alone... I know its strange for me to have that fear since I'm kinda a lone wolf... but I do have it... I fear I will lose friends and family and I will have nothing... to die alone and forgotten.. Thats a fear.... notice most of my fears are based off of not being in control, not haveing the power to interfer and change or help... Yeah I'm FUBARD... but hell so are most of you... so fuck off..
I understand fear very well and the thing is this... Try to not let fear control you and take control of your fear... you never know.. you might find yourself Happy...
This has been kinda a rant....
Sir Rant-a-lot
