Ok it is here the day that I have been wanting to get her for a week now.... I am leaving for Texas.... This is to meet a man that says that he loves me.... To be happy.... To start my life... I am going to miss alot of people the first one will be my son... Ethan I know that you will not be able to read this.... Hell you problly wont even know that mommy is gone... But I want you to know that I love you so much and I will be home in 4 weeks.... You will be the first to get a great big hug and lots of kisses from me...... Then there is my family... My sister, brother, mom and brother in law.... No matter what they have always been there for me and now at a time I need them the most I feel like they are not really there... Like I have just pushed them away as far as I could.... I want them to know that I love them so much.... I am gonna miss them.... I will be back in 4 weeks...
