So a few days ago I had the biggest blow out ever with some family members. I have officilly lost all respect I had for an older cousin and his trashy wife. My cousin was a good man in my life and I adored him. He was my buddy...an older brother if you will. He shattered that...
He's called me a bitch, and has told me to get a life and told me that in order for me to be happy and not carry resentment I needed to get over my wuelas death.....
hmmm ok yes I agree that I need to get over my wuelas death, well not so much over but feel less pain and less resentment. Im a bitter person at the moment, but you would be too if your best friend was taken from you because of an awful disease...Cancer will never be anyones friend..I have issues, I will admit.
So he got me with that one...Get a life?? PPfffttt ok......Me a bitch??? Yeah well I have my moments, but not with my family. I love them too much...Yeah they hurt me but I love them...But I can bitchy and fuckng rule any spot im in lol...I can tell you how it really is, and thats what I did with him. I told my cousin the truth and he lashed out on me instead of admiting it was the truth.
Him and his lame excuse for a wife decided to tell me nasty things, proving that they are way more resentful than I ever will be.....
Im not sorry I said the things I did, we all know its true, so they just need to admit it. Im just sorry because of the fashion I told it in.I should have done it more privately, That I will admit.....
Im sad and upset and hurt that we got to this level...Ive never been more mad at a family member, epecially enough to say Im done with them. I never want too have a reason to cross thier paths again. I never wanna have to face them again because i may not be responsible for my actions.....
Im not sure if this made sense to anyone...I rambled because my thoughts are everywhere and Im so upset by this fight that I cant think straight. I made my fingers bleed cause i bit them down to the skin,Ive smoked a pack and a half in 1 day....yeah you could say this is bothering me.... Im ranting and it feels good.....yeah...*SIGH*
