XaviRoseMaiden's blog: "poetry"

falling in love again , with a man i once loved .. i don't know but i can't keep away theres something about him .. but at the end of the day .. he might not choose me .. he might choose someone else .. such is the way of life ..
i wish you were here right now honey to hold me in those strong arms.. take me dancing and later look up into the night sky together .. shooting out the stars .. sharing a moment as we become lost in each other ..
like all time has stood still .. as we embrace , as we kiss.. slowly and first tasting each others lips for the first lip and then each kiss getting deeper and deeper .. and somehow we can't stop nor do we want as kiss for what seems like hours looking into each others eyes .. and i know that your my special man.. a special cowboy .. strong enough to handle the likes of me strong enough to put me in my place sometimes as i would do the same to you ..
as i look into your eyes all i see is love .. adoration .. i look into the eyes of a father .. i see so much good in you as i look into your eyes .. and i find myself wanting to carry your child .. wanting a home again .. scary but true ..
i find myself actually wanting a life with you , sharing our journey on this earth .. someone to call .. someone to wait for at the end of the day in my lingerie .. to kiss .. and cook dinner for .. a real family ..

how can i want so much and at the same time time know i might not ever have it .. how can i want to be so close yet .. let know i really love you ... and when you went away last time i cried so much .. and cried .. it was though a part of me had died .. and then you come back and here i am again .. waiting to see if im worthy of your love .. waiting to see .. what will happen .. i know one thing for sure .. if ive loved you twice i will always love you .. but in the end i don't know if i'll ever have you ...
such is life they say .. i can almost feel the tears running down my face .. and i can lamost see me lying in bed and not wanting to be out .. or caring once again but i guess imust risk it all again for love ..

for love is so worth the pain ... your love would be worth the pain .. its like your my other half .. the ying to my yang .. the balance i need ... the strength , a mind of a strong confident men to help steer me through life .. holding onto each other .. thorugh the best and worst times .. doing everything to make it work ..such is love .. such is life .. but at least i feel like i can through it all ..to be continued