MissAttitude's blog: "update"

I'm sitting here thinking about what has happened in the past week. not only have i been dealing with the everyday stress of trying to make a new life for myself, my daughter and eric but i lost a very close friend who i loved and adored. and still i found time for my friends. i may not have been the easiest person too talk to or be around but i still tried. now that i have emotionally hit rock bottom and i'm finding my own life just as pointless as roger may have thought his was i find myself losing even more "friends" nobody seems to understand what i'm going through and those who say they understand can i really believe them? i'm sick of hearing i'm there for you when you need me and when i look that person up they can't be found. i'm tired of people claiming they know me when they don't know jack shit. in the last 24 hours i have been called some very hurtful names and yet again who was there for me when it happened? i'm told to forget things and let them slide. well maybe i'm sick of doing that all the time. maybe i'm sick of bending over backwards to try to make people happy. as soon as i want to leave what is making me absolutely miserable i'm begged not to go cause people supposedly need me. but yet it's perfectly fine for others to leave me when i need them. just doesn't make sense to me and it frustrates me to no end. i can honestly say i know who is genuine in the fact that they care. i heard the crying and shared the tears. i also know who is nothing but a fake ass mother fuckin liar. unfortunately that person no longer has a profile on fubar to read how i feel. so maybe my long rant on how much people piss me off is pointless but in the end there's that slight chance that maybe i'll feel better.

for those of you who truly care about me, you know how to reach me. for the rest who wants to pretend to be my friend just to have a pathetic job in a fuckin lounge KISS MY BIG WHITE FAT FUCKIN ASS!!!!! i know who is real and who is fake. and anybody who needs to question who this is directed too needs to look in the mirror and think about what they might have done or said to piss me off