The tears blurred my vision as I tried to hide
Hide from the past that I hated so much
Hide from the man that had caused this pain
Hide from anyones
everyones touch
Sobs of sorrow escaped my throat
Trying to run
I just stumbled instead
Thinking of the man I had thought I loved
Thinking of the times he forced me to bed
All the times I had needed to talk
He hadn't cared
shrugging me away
And all the times I had wanted to leave
He grabbed my arm and forced me to stay
Every time after being with him
I spent the night crying in bed
Thinking of the man I thought I loved
And thinking of the terrible life I lead
The cheating he had done behind my back
I dont know why I chose to forgive
Those eight different girls he took to bed
Looking back
how can I possibly live
The child in me started to grow
When he found out he was quite upset
He made an appointment
forced me to go
killing the child I had never met
The hurt
the pain
the sorrow
The little girl I had even named
The child I had grown to love
The love that made me ashamed
When I moved we just broke up
And he took all the gifts that were mine
And I cried and I asked him to stop
But he said I would be just fine
But now I must move back
To the place of sorrow and pain
And I'm afraid I might still like him
And afraid that I might be insane
And I pray for strength and for courage
To stay away from such terrible men
Even though he might say he is sorry
I know he'd just do it again
One of my close friend's from CT is going through a very very tough time and this is whats happening to her and she needs all the prayer she can get
