I usually write in my journal,but since my private shit ends up here anyway.
Today I learned that what I need in a relationship,I cant have.I dont experience life through sight,touch or sound.I feel my way through life.My emotions control me and rational thought takes a back seat.Maybe I should listen to my friends and give up on the higher ideals of love and commitment.I am difficult.I have an over idealized sense of life and maybe I expect too much,but god I hope not.