You said you hate my suffering
And you understood
And you’d take care of me
You'd always be there
Well where are you now?
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And you say that I hurt you, in a voice like a prayer
Yeah, you say that I've hurt you, and your voice is like a prayer
Yeah, well maybe I hurt you sometimes, but let's contrast and compare
Lift up your shirt, the wound isn't there
I guess that your truth, is just the ghost of your lies
I guess your kind of truth, is just the ghost of your lies
Yeah, your kind of truth, darling, is just the ghost of your lies
I see through them all the time
So I'm pouring some whiskey, I'm gonna get drunk
Yeah, I'm pouring myself some whiskey, I'm going to get really fucking drunk
I'm pouring some whiskey right now, I'm going to get so, so drunk
That I pass out, forget your face, by the time I wake up.
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Lately I've been wishing I had one desire
Something that would make me never want another
Something that would make it so that nothing mattered
All would be clear then
But I guess I'll have to settle for a few brief moments
And watch it all dissolve into a single second
And try to write it down into a perfect sonnet
or one foolish line
'Cause that's all that you'll get so you'll have to accept
You are here then you're gone
But I believe that lovers should be tied together and
Thrown into the ocean in the worst of weather
and left there to drown
Left there to drown in their innocence
But as for me I'm coming to the final chapter
I read all of the pages and there is still no answer
Only all that was before I know must soon come after
That is the only way it can be
So I stand in the sun
And I breathe with my lungs
Trying to spare me the weight of the truth
Saying everything you've ever seen was just a mirror
And you've spent your whole life sweating in an endless fever
And now you are laying in a bathtub full of freezing water
Wishing you were a ghost
But once you knew a girl and you named her Lover
And danced with her in kitchens through the greenest summer
But autumn came, She disappeared
You can't remember where she said she was going to
But you know that she's gone 'cause she left you a song
That you don't want to sing
We're singing I believe that lovers should be chained together
And thrown into a fire with their songs and letters
And left there to burn
Left there to burn in their arrogance
But as for me I'm coming to my final failure
I've killed myself with changes trying to make things better
But I ended up becoming something other than what I had planned to be
Now I believe that lovers should be draped in flowers
And layed entwined together on a bed of clover
And left there to sleep
Left there to dream of their happiness
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And now a poem for MR:
How can you not see what you're doing to me?
The countless nights I've spent on the phone
Crying to you, because of you.
Are you really that blind?
Do you hate me that much?
You blame me for everything wrong in your life
And I haven't even been involved in months
You dont see what you're doing to me
I'm always there for you; I've always kept my promises
You've gotten everything you've ever wanted from me
Even when I didnt want to give it,
And yet, you are blind to the fact that you are hurting me.
Worse than I already feel.
I tell you I deserve respect from you
But even the very next day, you ignore everything.
How can you be so blind?
Did you not hear my cries?
You blame me for hurting you, that this is your protection.
What about my protection?
I have nothing to protect myself against you with.
You said you love me, you know I take those words seriously.
I'm honest with you, yet you cant seem to make up your mind.
How can you be so blind?
Did you not see my face?
My tears?
You walk past with a dirty glance,
Not even seeing my tears, my pain.
5 years down the drain, I never meant to hurt you.
But I've paid more than what I owe to you.
I still treat you like a friend; I still show you I care.
But 5 years down the drain now,
How can you be so blind to everything?
How can you not see how you are ripping me apart, piece by piece?
You heard my tears, my cries, my pain.
How can you be so blind?
