Don't lie to a person and tell them you could be ready... that things could work out... that you want them to work out...
when you know you're not ready. I know you're hurt, but we're all hurt in some way. I'm hurt the same way you are and about a billion other ways as well.
but I wanted to make the effort. I saw something in you that made my heart stand still and feel whole again... I still see it... I still want you... I could still be yours...
I need to stop... I need to rethink my whole life... I've been so happy these last few days because of you... only you. you put a smile on my face that hasn't been there in sooo long and you just took it away. what the hell?
friends it is then, and i'll just watch you from afar... making people love you... making them wish you weren't so hurt.
I wish that I could heal your pain. I wish that you could trust me enough for me to help cuz I'm so good at helping and I'm so sorry for the way I reacted...
Why am i apologizing? neither of us really owes the other an apology.. but this is who I am... trying to make you feel better.. trying not to let these tears fall because they're so stupid and juvenile and I can't stand myself when they come but they come all the same.
I need somehow to feel whole...