just fucking kill me now, im tired im sick, the girl i fell for the hardest, said herself that she thinks i am discusting, and that she had never loved me....yet for some odd reason i get haunted by her name i wanted to forget i wanted to be happy again but now i am reduced to tears....somthing is fucking with my head, the only good its doing is the favor that society may not have to see me again, its either going to kill me some how, or drive me completly insane, and institutionalized, locked away in my own little play pin never to be seen from nor heard from ever again, i loved her with my heart and my soul, and nothing would ever change that...at a loss of words i sit with tear drops trickling down my face, the warmth of my tears are some what comforting considering im the only one in the room, they are the only things keeping me company. even then they too soon leave me.......i wipe them away....and am completly alone....