Hey everyone, I'm posting this blog because of a friend. You see I really dont have any confidence in myself so there for after the last blog in October I quit putting up blogs but my new friend bigdaddy on here let me know that I was special in my own way, I have known him less than a week and he is already very special to me. After I read his blog it let me know how special someones life is so here I am posting a new blog.
I am not some ordinary woman, unlike most women who can take in someones love, I cant all I ever do is push people away. If I take in someones love and cherish it they leave and never come back, wheather it is GOD's doing or not. I push people away so I wont feel the pain of losing them, I cant stand to lose someone special to me so I block all feelings I have for them out. Now your probably saying that I should not be blocking peoples feelings or pushing them away like that. Sometimes I lay away at night waiting for death to come and take me away because I used to think it didnt matter. Well I think it is time to change that before I lose everything I ever wanted. If you got someone you love just tell them, I guess GOD or that person will decide if they want anything to do with you.
