Eraser*
i am the one that wills your way
there is no salvation for the lost ones inside
i am the one that wills your way
scars are what you have left me with
i am the doll that is stitched
i feel them tearing apart when i am down on my knees
begging for your mercy when there is none
peculiar ways to get me to believe what you say
i was lost inside your cloud of deceit
for far too long i was inside your hell
now i am free of your clutches
there is no return from this
now i am diseased
sometimes i want the fire
sometimes i want the flame
sometimes its not what i want
that makes me go insane
forever you will stain me, make me what i am now
nothing inside for everyone to see
cut me apart and see what my insides are made of
they are made of rancid materials that will make you want me
i am the queen of nothingness
i call from inside my own hell
what is true anymore, its hard to see
with eyes clouded with lies, sewn together with my own veins
kill me see what you find
pieces of the puzzle lost amid the ruin
i am the one that wills your way
everytime i heal i am ripped apart
so what is the point of healing
everyone metions what has become of you
and i am certain that i need not know
elaborate on the fact that i do not need your presence to survive
i will find myself overwhelmed with the thought of something new
sometimes i want the fire
sometimes i want the flame
sometimes its not what i want
that makes me go insane
pray with me that this storm blows over
and everything unclean will be wiped away
if any of this seeps in i hope that someone hears it
fortuantely i have a way of hiding the disgust i feel
and no one is the wiser
bleaching my world in hopes of erasing the past
i have lost many nights to mania
limping back to the beginning to see if i can still win the race
i seem to have an attraction to the things that hurt the most
maybe it is my sick way of feeling alive
i will not succumb to this
i will not let this ruin my plans
close my eyes and nothing around me exists
blink you all away
and make new my surroundings
sometimes i want the fire
sometimes i want the flame
sometimes its not what i want
that makes me go insane
