all of the poems i wrote and they mean something to me and i woud appreciate it if nobo took them and used them as their own.feel free to comment and rate what you think is a good rating and whatnot.
thoughtless
Thoughts of suicide
Too much rage
Consume my life
Stage by stage
I lay here staring
At the blackness of my heart
Knowing that we've grown too far apart
I want to speak
To tell you how I feel
Your voice makes me weak
Your eyes make me kill
Worrying about us
Was all I seemed to do
I know its over
And I'm glad
I won't waste anymore tears
On the good times we had
I wasted my breath
Saying "I love you"
All of a sudden
Crying is all I seemed to do
Now that you're gone
I finally see
That you are better off
Without me
Problems
I can't escape the drama
Even though I try
I can't escape the pain
It's etched too deep
I just hear screaming
I try to block it out
I just want it to stop
Nothing is working
The yelling echo's in my thoughts
I turn my music up louder
They say it not my fault
I know they are lying
I want to leave this life
And never come back
The needles go through my skin
Piercing away the pain
The cuts bleed
I feel better
A razor through my skin
Releases my anger
I lay my head back and close my eyes
I hope that I don't wake up
I am sick of causing people pain
I should just disappear
The hurt in my heart
Just can't be numbed
I take a drink
That's only a temporary fix
Maybe a few more will help
I look to strangers for comfort
They don't care about my pain
My anger gets the best of me
I punch a wall
My broken and bloody knuckles numb
I act like nothing is wrong
I sit in the corner knees to my chest
Crying black tears
Blood dripping from my hand
Not caring whether I live or die
My life flashes before my eyes
Am I dead yet?
I hear people crying for me to come back
I run further away
My body goes limp
I have finally disappeared
Emotionless
Shattered pieces of my heart
Lay on the floor
I just stand there crying
Waiting for happiness
I get a needle and thread
Hoping to put myself back together
I look for love in all the wrong places
My heart getting shattered more and more
Slowly over time
My heart turns to dust
My emotions are no more
Just a cold stare
Anger is the only emotion I have
The days go by and it gets worse
Self mutilation and alcohol
Are my best friends
My hands bruised and scabbed
My anger takes hold
It wont let go
One by one my emotions return
Depression, rage, grief
Happiness never comes back
My facade slowly sinking
My true self showing
My friends leave me
I am cold hearted and numb
I run far away
Hoping that nobody finds me
I trip and fall over my stupidity
I lay in the open field
Choking on my tears
I scream until my throat is raw and bleeding
I punch the earth knowing it won't hit back
Suddenly I stop
Like a zombie I walk home
I pour myself a drink and take a sip
It burns my bleeding throat
I go upstairs to my room and lay in bed
I close my eyes never to wake again
Drowning
I sit in the corner and cry
Pointless black tears
Remembering the past
And the life that I had
I had love and happiness
I just threw it away
I go out to the lake
And look at the moon
I say out loud "I'm sorry"
I jump in
I take a deep breath
And let the water fill my lungs
I want to come up for air
The rocks in my pockets weigh me down
I close my eyes
And listen to the silence
Regretting nothing
I feel my heart slowing
I feel my lungs tightening
I clench my fists
My heart is barely beating
I have one last thought
The thought of him
I open my eyes
Just in time to see my life flash before them
I am silenced forever
All that is left of me
Is a puddle of pointless black tears
Ex Boyfriend
Standing in the shower
She lets the scolding hot water
Run over her beaten bloody body
And slit wrists
"This is the last time" she says
"I will never let him hurt me again"
She watches the blood and water mix
As it goes down the drain
She hears him knocking
On the bathroom door
He yells at her
Telling her she better
Get out of the bathroom
The warm tears
Sting her face
She's getting weaker
Her eyes getting heavier
He is still knocking at the door
Still yelling and threatening her
She gets dizzy and sits down
The water still
Burning her skin
She wonders why she ever
Started dating him again
She's dealt with the abuse before
She thought he'd change
She lays her head back
On the edge of the tub
And draws in her final breath
In the moment her bursts
Through the door
He holds her limp body
Crying over his stupidity
She just lays there
Lifeless and limp
Her lips turning blue
The slits on her wrists
Wide and still bleeding
He finally realizes how
Much he hurt her
He grabs a hunting knife
Takes a deep breath and
Slits both wrists
Just like she did
In the last few moments
Of his life he whispers to her
"Du bist meine bloss liebling"
And silently dies
Holding his true loves
Cold bloody hand
Lonely girl
She sits in her room
Crying over her loneliness
Nobody loves her
Nobody cares
she was once the happiest
Now she just cries
She wears nothing but black
She never speaks out loud
She is constantly mourning
The loss of the ability to love
Where did it go?
Her ex must have ripped it out of her
She writes morbid poems
Hoping that will help
No matter how hard she tries
They all end in death
She thinks about her friends
And the one she loves
She wants to call him
Maybe he will cheer her up
He doesn't pick up the phone
She slams down the receiver
She gets so pissed
One by one she punches holes in the walls
One by one her knuckles shatter
When all of her knuckles are broken
And blood is dripping from her hands
She starts to scream
Until she cant scream anymore
She grabs the rubbing alcohol
And pours it on her swollen bloody hands
She doesn't feel the pain
She goes outside and looks at the stars
She collapses and cries
Not our of sadness
But out of frustration
All she wants is the love of another
The comfort of another's arms
The feel of passionate kisses
The protection of another's voice
She's not asking too much
Just the feeling of being loved again
Unwanted love
She dresses in short skirts
And low cut shirts
Gaining unwanted attention
And losing self esteem
Older guys offer her nice things
She nicely refuses
Until one horrible day
When one man much older than her
Followed her home
He knocked on her door
She answers it questioningly
The stranger walks in without asking
He shuts the door and locks it
Then pushes her to the ground
Forcing himself upon her
He muffles her screams
So the neighbors don't hear
She cries as he slaps her
She clenches her fists
While he has his way with her
She sees the hate in his eyes
She feels the fear in hers
She wishes that this wasn't happening to her
She tries to get free
He puts his hand on the throat
Making it hard for her to breathe
Suddenly he stops
He lets go of her throat
She lays there to scared to move
She wants to scream for help
She can't muster any strength
She tries to fix herself
He threatens her
She runs to the corner
And pulls the switchblade from her purse
Suddenly she feels this sharp pain
And hears this loud crack
Blood pours from her side
As she falls to her knees
Blade still raised in the air
To stab her attacker
She can't breathe
Everything gets dark
She closes her eyes
And falls to the ground
He leaves her there on the floor
A limp and bloody mess
All that is left is a product
Of unwanted love
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Husband Application for Marrying samantha....
Name:
Age:
Birthdate:
Height:
Weight:
Eye Color:
Hair Color:
Address:
Phone Number:
Email:
Myspace:
Please attach DNA Samples, and copies of your social security card, birth certificate, drivers license, and a recent photo of yourself to this application. Also include your medical record, criminal record, and driving record.
Mother's Name:
Age:
Birthdate:
Occupation:
Address:
Phone Number:
Father's Name:
Age:
Birthdate:
Occupation:
Address:
Phone Number:
Sibling names and ages:
What is the most recent school you attended?
Did you/ will you graduate?
GPA?
What are your following sizes:
Shirt:
Jeans:
Shoes:
Most important do you know Samantha's sizes? (To buy her gifts)
1. What are your religious beliefs?
2. Do you have a confederate flag?
3. What does the confederate flag mean to you?
4. In detail, what do you drive? Include VIN?
5. Are you a trust fund baby?
6. Do you go fishing? How often? (attach fishing license)
7. Do you own a boat?
8. Do you hunt?(attach hunting license)
9. What guns do you own? (attach gun registration)
My guns are bigger.
10. Where do you work and how much do you get paid?
11. Do you ride a bike or moped?
12. What question are you hoping that im not going to ask you?(please answer that question)
13. Can you support yourself? Would you be able to support 1 more person? And give Samantha EVERYTHING she wants?
14. Do you own any animals? If so, what? (kind, name, age, breed)
15. Why did your past relationship end?
16. Do you have any kids? Is it possible you have kids unknown to you?
17. Have you ever killed anyone? Did you get any blood on your shoes?
18. Does your family own a cemetery? Can we eat taco bell there at 2 am?
19. How often do you chase deer through ditches with a .22?
20. If someone were to put you in a "label" what would it be? (ie. punk, country, preppy, gangster, hick, crackwhore, etc.)
21. How often is there too much blood in your alcohol stream?
22. Would you ever make it on UFC?
I can kick your ass.
23. Have you ever tried smoking a crayon? What color?
24.Have you ever been married before?
25. List of past marriages?
26. How would I get in contact with them?
27. Do you approve of clearance crack?
28. Do you smoke cigarettes?
29. Do you drink alcohol?
30. Do you approve of supplying alcohol to minors?
31. What are you getting Samantha for her birthday?
32. Where would you take her on your honeymoon?
33. It's 2am and she's leakin... would you make that tampon run for her?
34. You said you would call in a little while, what's a little while?
35. Have you ever cheated in any past relationships? No need to explain.
36. Have you ever stalked someone? Would ya stalk Samantha?
37. What if Samantha decides she's not bathing for a couple of days...do you still sleep in the same bed with her?
38. Are you a fan of bondage and bubble baths with rubber duckies?
39. Do you have tattoos? Please include pictures of all for Identification of your body.
40. You bored yet? Wishing this was over?
41. What is your viewpoint on threesomes?
42. You just found out Samantha is bisexual, what is your response?
43. What is your preferred method of safe sex? Abstinence is not an answer cuz I know you're full of shit.
44. Do you have a question?
45. I really don't care....
46. Would anyone miss your sorry ass?
If you run I will find you...
I swear that all this information is true to my best of my knowledge.
X________________________________________________
Signature (that's your name moron)
Please allow 6 years for processing..don't call me for updates. If your approved and most likely not, you will be informed. Otherwise have a nice fucking life!