Somebody Elses Weirdo's blog: "A Letter to Me"

I was recently dumped. Not really a big deal, I hadn’t invested a lot of feelings into the relationship or anything. Thing is, this guy basically told me that I'm too intense, too passionate (as if that's a problem in this day & age). He actually said "Your passion doesn't let you see past the moment that you're in. At each beginning, I'm guessing that you would think that "this" might be the one ... You throw your entire worth and being into the relationship". I know what you're thinking "Did this guy even know you?" ... I have to say no.

If you know me ... you know that my passion is with me in everything I do in life. I "throw my entire worth and being" into my entire life. It's what got me through losing so much over the years. It's what brought me to Washington. It's what pushes me to succeed despite every obstacle I've come up against.

Someone once told me that I have the ability to make a person feel like they're the only person in the world. What makes that such a bad thing? Why shouldn't everyone feel that special at least once in their lives? Just because you are important to me in the moment(s) that we share together doesn't mean that I'm planning a wedding or that I suddenly have this delusion of happily ever after (by the way, I dont believe in "happily ever after" .. happy endings are just stories that haven't finished yet) ... it means, in all it's simplicity, that you're special and you should feel special, if only for the short time that I can do that for you.

I suddenly want to change. I want to treat men like shit because that's what it seems to take to make them want to hang around long enough to get to know the real me. Not the me that they want me to be. Not the me that watches sports because he does. Not the me who eats red meat because he does. Not the me who doesn’t spend enough time with my kids because it seems he wants me around. But the me who loves the Dave Matthews Band .. the me who loves to dance in front of the fireplace .. the me who loves to spend time on the computer learning new things ... the me who loves to sing at the top of my lungs when I thinks no one is listening .. the me who is so complacent and placid  that “whatever you want to do” really does mean “whatever you want to do” … the me who dies a little when someone important leaves my life. The me who feels that everyone in my life is important enough ...

But ... dont fret, dear friend ... Even though I let the people of my past change me in more ways than I care to admit … that is one thing I will not let them change. You are more important to me than that. You are enough for me ...  always <3