Ya ever wonder wha it's like to be someone's number one? I do every day! I wish I knew what that feeling was like. I'm sure it's good... I've never been someone's everything, never had someone's world revolve around me. Believe me, I've revolved my world around a few people but not gotten it in return... Ya kno, everyone has had their share of heaertbreaks but come on! When you don't have ANYTHING good happen in between it ALWAYS feels worse! And I'm pretty much scarred!!! For example, there is this guy that I'm really starting to like this guy and I'm being pulled in 2 totally different directions! One part of me wants to talk to him all the time like usual. I think about him alot! And the other part of me is tellin me to back off and let it go cuz I'm so scared he is gonna hurt me like everyone else has! It's jus so deja vu in the beginning that I think it's jus gonna end up bein the same thing. Ya kno?? I dunno wha to do anymore! I really don't wanna push him to the side cuz he really could be sincere in everything he says but it's jus that I've heard it all before and it was game!
