I am almost always a very happy person as most of you know. I rarely have emo days but I am having one today. Actually more a case of the blahs and woe is me kinda day. It must be the post holiday blues or something.
Most of my friends are happily married or are involved with someone and here sits me on the sidelines all alone. I find myself really wanting what they have...someone to share my life with.
I just want a man that treats me well and truly loves me for me. And therein lies the problem. I am pretty sure I blew my chance with a great guy because I just don't let people in. What really sucks is I am to much of a coward to tell him how I really feel. When someone gets to close I tend to push them away. I have built walls so high that I am not sure any one can break them down. I don't know what to do. Actually, that's not true. I do know what I need to do just not sure I can do it.
Once you have built miles of wall around your heart how does one go about disassembling those walls to let a chance of love in?
