~What was once the only truth is now the truth that only one knows~
~The light fades into desperate darkness and I am here breathing passion down your exposed neck.~
It's always so difficult to know just what to say about oneself. Can one ever truly know another from some words written on a screen? I value honesty more then anything else, and I hope that most others that write their profiles do as well! With that said I will now tell you a bit about myself.
I am a woman with strong emotions, I love, I hurt, I cry and I bleed just like any other. I enjoy spending time with friends and family. I love to curl up beneath a warm quilt and read a good book. I value the time I have with the friends that I have met online, no matter how long that time may be. I am a good listener, and I love to just chat about miscellaneous things. So if you are up for a good talk and a friendly ear please feel free to add me!
I have gone through a lot of pain in my life, and sometimes it does get to me and I need to find a place to hide within myself, but these periods do not usually last long and I am up and better then I was before. I try my hardest to not bring others down with me in these moments, but if you truly come to care for me you will unfortunately feel the backlash at least once. For that I apologize, and understand if you would rather not get to know me better.
I am surrounded by beauty, I can turn in any direction and be facing a mountain. I can drive a few miles and be surrounded by the trees on those mountains. City life is definitely not for me!
Once you are my friend I will do what I can to help you through the joys and sorrows we all experiance throughout the days. I love with a passion that is deep. Appearance is nothing to me as beauty is only skin deep, if you have a beautiful soul that is all that matters!
I love animals and believe that they know exactly what you are saying to them. I have a dog and he is like my child. His name is Zeus and he has helped me through some very difficult times in my life, he hurts when I hurt and that makes me want to get up and get better because I hate seeing him in pain! He is a big dog, half Siberian husky and half Black Lab, and when I am crying it is nothing for him to lift me up and knock my face around with his big goofy head, LOL
I am somewhat of a poet, I write my pain. A few of my poems have been published in poetry compilations, I am very happy about it and would like to have a complete book of my poems published at some time in my life. I have written Erotic short stories on occasion, and find it quite enjoyable. I just wish that I would be able to take the erotic out of it, lol, no matter how hard I try I can never finish a story without adding the sex to it. *giggles* I am a bit of an artist although I tend to not have the patience to take my time with something, and catch myself rushing through it instead of letting the art form itself. Below is I believe one of the best poems I have written.
From Dusk til' Dawn, Embrace of the Vampire, Beyond the Law, Batman Begins, House of Wax, The Lost Boys, Fright Night, John Carpenter's Vampires, Bram Stoker's Dracula, All The Harry Potters(lol) The Last Unicorn, The Dark Crystal, The Wraith, Platoon, Amityville(old and new), LOTR, Bram Stoker's Dracula, Wes Craven's Vampires, Meridian, The Howling, Silver Bullet, It, The Stand, Interview with the Vampire, Underworld, Cheech & Chong, The Devil's Rejects, An American Haunting, Blade Trinity(it's the best of the trilogy IMO)lol.... and a ton more. ~~smiles~~
One of the people I think of as an Idol is Jim Morrison, he was such a shattered soul but he had such beauty hidden within. Many only see the drinking and drug problems that he had but I truly believe that he was full of so much artistry that he was simply unable to cope with reality so sought refuge in mind altering substances. One of my favorite quotes is Jim’s, it is shown below.
"People fear death even more than pain. It's strange that they fear death. Life hurts a lot more than death. At the point of death, the pain is over. Yeah, I guess it is a friend." ~Jim Morrison~
Another person I idolize is my brother. He is a year younger then me, but he has accomplished a lot in his life. He sees a goal and no matter how much it may hurt him he will reach that goal. I think of him as an artist, many may not because he is but a simple stone mason, but if you have ever stopped and truly watched a blank wall be covered with stones in just the right sizes and colors you will know what I mean. He has been my protector for as long as he has been alive and for that I will always be thankful.
I also idolize both of my parents. Things have not always been easy for them but they have done what they needed to do in order to raise me and my brother. We have lived in places most would find unlivable but during it all we always knew we were safe and loved! I can only hope to someday be able to take care of myself as well as they have taken care of me.