3:50 am and I am listening to the rain fall outside my window..soul tears from the skies above reaching their way back from the heavens above.
I sit here in almost total darkness with only the light of my monitor illuminating my keyboard.
Thoughts racing through my mind like the wind rushes through the trees.
Can't help but wonder what it would be like if I never saw things again...giving eyesight to the blind..to give something of myself to someone less fortunate than I...
The gifts we're given should never be taken for granted by any of us...
Blessed I feel at times given a gift of compassion a true gift that heals and that is my purpose in this life...is to heal.
I have never known until now...I can still give love to the people whom I am brought to love, but when it comes the actual physical aspect of having that one to love and to hold...it doesn't exist, I am only capable of loving one woman and it more than likely will never come to that...I have never felt this way about anyone in my whole life...she was the one this life I was drawn too...there is nothing that I can do about this.
I will move on in other areas of my life and will detach this part...just not feeling anything anymore...when you pour all of what you are to give to that one person and it just fades away...I took her in one night...literally soaked her into my soul because that's what I was meant to do, that is what I was told to do.
I will love this woman for all of eternity...
This wolf walks alone now...leaving his prints in the snow.
Not to look back..
Under a fullmoon's glow.
Afraid too sleep because of the dreams of thee..
They're trying to tell me something...
Open your heart to me...
