Dreaming Lies
Stop staring at me, expecting me to explain myself to you. Sitting there looking innocent with you hotty totty fantasies and immoral beliefs.
How dare you ridicule me for the choices I make in my life, for when I do what you see as right, I find the whole in my heart widdens a little more.
I do not believe as you do. I do not live as you do, yet I am drawn to you .. Like a moth to a bug zapper. A beautiful deadly light beckoning me to come forth … feel the pleasure … expect the pain.
Do you see me screaming inside? Do you feel the coldness of my heart when I lay next to you at night and think of how much I loathe you? You have pushed me to this point. You hide behind you mask of pride and greed. You want it all. You take the innocence and replace it with a whore to do your bidding - hiding behind her own mask of make up and cigarette smoke. Choking on you dreams, drowing in your lies and manipulations.
I bow my head to your dominance, for I have fallen long ago. I weep with the torment that lives within my soul. Every waking hour I tell myself all is ok, all is right … I dream of love and happiness. Dreaming lies…
Where is the happiness to be found in your accusing stare? Where is the love in your unrelenting heart? Where is the hope for a bright future? You are bright, you are my bug zapper. ZZZAAAAPPP Dead.
Oh beautiful light, dreamer of lies, stealer of souls … Shine your brilliance upon me no more, cast me into the dakness, least there I find peace.
