There are always breaks in your life when everything seems to be going just right. Your happy, but your afraid of being to happy for fear of the bad to come back. Maybe its just letting the wrong one go. Dought is one of the largest things that goes on in your head. Some times those doughts can over ride your brain and it makes it hard to believe anything is the truth. Being hurt and lyed to so many times can wear you down to nothing. Afriad to trust for fear of regection, pain, the constent tears of the constent let down of yourself. The only thing i can say is to be you, or try to. So hard to trust. When is it you let your guard down enough to let someone in, but to have so much dought that all they want is to use. I dont know why dont you tell me let it ride or do what you always do and push away?