DOUBLE EDGED SWORD GAMES
Contaminated by this pure passion, saturated by it
Never far beneath the surface and like a drug it’s always missed
Catch a glimpse of it reflected in these eyes, a dark light there is no mistaking it
Stare at this murderous gaze in the mirror then watch the glittering pieces litter the floor
Scar that pretty face until it’s just as unrecognizable as my own, distorted by the cracks and bits of missing glass, kept pushing until this is all that’s left
No more compassion and respect left, through giving warnings
***** it this bullet’s got your name etched on it
Trained at your heart ready to blow you apart, think this is game?
Couldn’t be more serious, told you more than twice just don’t have the time
Said I wouldn’t go there but the line was crossed at last, been waiting for this moment
No more apologies on this end and it’s far too late for you to begin
We can’t go back in the past, prevent the events that have come to pass
Only miss you until I get used to the silence again
Nothing drown out hearing these thoughts that never left in peace
This heart cannot get any blacker, when will you understand this is who I am?
The love hate relationship isn’t healthy, cast my heart aside
Sold it to the devil, never want to see it beat for someone else
Made the grave, set the headstone in place, all that’s left is you to join the ranks
Meant to walk this world alone, leave it alone, that’s as clear as the shards on the ground
Let me walk out the door, want to be my own downfall
After all the fault was mine from the start because I let myself,
Fall prey to the lies you told, just wanted to believe then I wouldn’t be alone
But this is my destiny to walk on my own, never needed your company
Kept you here with me just to prove something unexplainable
This isn’t worth the stress, so much easier to place the blame,
Than admit the pain, anger freezes everything puts it in slow motion
Seeing every inch the bullet takes and the look of complete shock on your face
Painful to watch but can’t turn away and yet no remorse passes my way
Pick up from where I left off but never move forward from this hole,
Dug it just for me to fall through and you to fall in afterward
Sick, love revenge that forces me to suffer too
Aware of how twisted it has become
Can’t help but wonder is this the last piece of sanity slipping away
Live to play the double edged sword game, where everyone’s a loser
Winning is against the rules and cheating only gets a higher penalty
Come to think about it let’s all play to lose, you know eventually we all do
copyright jas 2007
