I never really blog at all in fact I try not to because then people really get to see a side of me that I prefer to keep to myself but this time I will do so cause I have to get this off my chest, I’m a person that believes in love and believes that with love and understanding all things can be overcome but unfortunately there are some people out there that make it very difficult to even want to fight for those principles.
With out going into detail someone who used to be in my life has recently hurt me in a very deep way and insulted my wife and I in telling us that we are less than nothing when It comes to being quality candidates for ever keeping a girlfriend, basically give up on being happy with our way of thinking and being true to ourselves, now this is directed to this person.
“It’s not my fault that you lead a miserable life right now and are to afraid to make a choice that would have made you happy instead of continuing to leave a body count of broken hearts behind you simply because your to afraid to face up to your own fears.
To those friends whom know what’s going on in my life and have been there for me, thank you but this pain has really gotten a hold of me in such a way that I will have to go for a little while and reflect, who knows maybe I am a jerk and insensitive as this person claims me to be “I don’t know” I’m lost, distraught and just tired of being who I am and lately I feel like who I am as of late is a doormat that people are more than willing to step all over and clean their shit of on, even some of my closest friends talk down to me and I just let it go simply because I want to keep the peace.
Well for a while now I’m going to go away and not even bother anymore, I’m tired of being Mister nice guy, the one that everyone can talk to then gets discarded like yesterday’s news, sure I’m there for everyone but no ones there for me I guess that’s my roll in life, well it’s time for this door mat to take a break at least give me a chance to clean this shit off me so I can come back to be stepped on.
Later, Rich aka Sinister 17
