Indy's blog: "Parts of my Past ♥"

I was goin onto one of my social networking sites... and it said they found a pic to use as my default cuz I hadnt picked one.... and it was a pic of my ex that shot himself.... someone suggested it..

I just opened my email and I saw the message from the site so I logged in and I saw it and just bust out in tears... I dont have the heart to take it off there either.... cuz of the after drama with his family. Its one of only 2 or 3 pics I have of him

Here is our story :

I met him when I was 8. It was like a match made in heaven... never a single fight. He and his brother got cancer at the exact same time, I was there for his the whole way though it. He and the fam moved to Canada for 9 months for treatment. I was faithful and just waited for him.... I said goodbye cuz I wasnt really expecting him to come home  But he did, and one month later his brother got tangled up in some "gang related" drama, and brought him in it too. The gang drama happened and his brother got killed.. stabbed 17 times in the chest, and they killed the brothers 2 kids that were in the car. He blamed himself, and cuz he got dragged into it, they said, well now your brother is dead so we just got to take care of you. He told them he wasnt scared of them and blah blah blah. So they said they were gonna kill me while he watched, unless they got to him first.
So he shot himself in the head, right in front of me.... cuz if he didnt die, they would have killed me..... 1 week before my birthday
His mom still blames me... I gave his sister all the pics of us, cuz she was making a memorial thingy, and when his mom found it, she burned them, every last one. I only have 2 or 3, and then the one I got today. I was not allowed to go to the funeral, I dont know where he is burried, and his mom refused to let him be burried with his ring on.
I still have my ring from him, and his on a necklace...

Yes, I am young. Yes, I have a lot more of the world to expericance. I am NOT however immature, irresponsible, or ignorant of the stuff that goes on in the world. I am not posting this as a "Ohh pitty me" banner. I am not a fradgil doll, I can not be broken. I am a person, I do have feelings. I have a VERY short temper. I believe this has a lot to do with it. So before you try to judge me, take a second and think about it. I am not like anyone else out there. I have my moments but I always know the limits.