PeRfEcTxNiGhTmArE's blog: "dissapointment"

This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didnt realize it at the time
I cant forgive myself for the way I treated you so
I dont really expect you to either
it's just... I don't even know
just listen
your the one that I want the one that I need
the one that I gotta have just to succeed
when I first saw you I knew it was real
im sorry about the pain I made you feel That wasnt me let me show you the way
i looked for the sun but it's raining today
i remember when I first looked into your eyes
it was like there was a God like there was a heaven
i wore a disguise cause I didnt want to get hurt
but I didnt know I made everything worse
you told me we were in love
but you didnt care when push came to shove
if you loved me as much as you said you did
then you wouldnt have hurt me like I aint shit
now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart really and truly
I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
when I would run my fingers through your hair
late nights just holding you in my arms
I dont know how I could do you so wrong
I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one else could know you
you were number one always in my heart
and now I cant believe that our love is torn apart
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you cause
I wanna hold you
I wanna kiss you
you were my everything
and I really miss you
I know you gonna sit and play this with your new girl
and then sit and laugh as your holding her hand
the thought of that just shatters my heart
it breaks in my soul and it tears me apart
at times we was off I was scared to show you
now I wanna hold you until I cant hold you
without you everything seems strange
your name is forever planted in my brain
damn it Im insane
take away the pain
take away the hurt
baby we can make it work
what about when you
looked into my eyes
told me you loved me as you would hug me
I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it it brings tears to my eyes
now Im not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly my love is not blind
I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
no matter what you'll always be in my heart
our first day it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
remember when you first came to my house?
makes me laugh everytime i get a flash back
we hit it off I knew it was real
but now I cant take all the pain that I feel
reach in your heart I know Im still there
i dont wanna hear that you no longer care
remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn't think you would ever do me like this
I didn't think you'd wanna see me depressed
I thought youd be there for me this I confess
you said you loves me was that a lie?
now I'm nothing to you you're with another girl
I tried I tried I tried and Im trying
now on the inside it feels like I'm dying
and I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now we'll never know
the only thing I want is for you to be happy
whether it be with me or without me
I just want you to be happy