On March 17, 2008 I lost a very dear family member that I held very high and very close to my heart... My grandmother had open heart surgery on my birthday, February 19th...
Within 1 month, she passed away due to hospital neglect, major organ failure, and a bacterial infection...
My aunt and I were on our way to Florida on March 16th to put her into a nursing home for a speedy recovery and transition back into home.... Little did we know the night before we left for Florida, she turned for the worst... We got to Florida about 4 in the morning and stopped to see her... She was on life support... Concious and aware of her surroundings... As I went to her, to hug her and to kiss her, I saw her eyes so large... so scared... so vulnerable... We promised we would be back the next morning... As I left a tear ran down her face... I told her I loved her...
The hospital kept calling us all night to give us updates... my aunt and I were up by 9AM and at the hospital... When I walked into her room, she was no longer there... Her body was not functioning at all... They told us we had to make a decision... And if she regained conciousness, there's no way her organs would survive and she would not live a full healthy life in any way... We had no choice...
My aunt and I decided, after much consideration with the doctor's that it was time to let my Ninnie go... My only grandmother I had had for the past 14 years...
They took the tubes out of her... And they let us come into be with her lifeless body... I watched her take her last breath.... I held her hand, and cried as she passed on... And I will never forget that sound... Never forget the struggle... and each day I am so thankful that I am here... very thankful for what I have... I love my life and everything in it...
Today I was coming home from classes... I've been listening to a lot more country lately, and this song came on... It reminded me so much of her... I started bawling in the car...And as I sit and type this, a tear is running down my face as well...
