Whoknew's blog: "does true love really exist?"

i'm confused and upset and not really sure what to do.  i have only talked to my dad a few times in 34 years then out of the blue in the middle of november he starts calling me.  He wants to give me money for the things i need.  yes i need the money what with me being a single mother of 2 young daughters.  i have just moved a month and a half ago from ohio to illinois with nothing but my daughters our clothes and my car i have a part time job and get child support but everything is still tight financially i am determined to make a better life for my daughters and myself.  i may need the money but i donkt feel right taking it considering i would've rather had a father growing up everyone tells me this is my fathers way of making amends but i don't think there is any amount of money that could fill the hole in my heart that being without a father has created i am a good person and have forgiven my father for his absence but i still have trust issues what should i do?

i wonder if true love even exist or is it a fairy tale.  i have been looking for true love or just someone to love me all my life.  from the age of 5 i have seen how cold this world can be i have been beaten by my moms ex husband while she stood there and watched i was shown that it wasn't ok to show emotuon and made to feel like i was worthless and unloveable my exhusband only wanted me for a piece of ass someone to help raise his son and someone to cook his meals do his laundy and clean his house until he could find someone else to do it for him which he found that replacement a week after i went to take care of my sick mother.  i'm still looking for true love and someone to show me that i can be loved.