Disturbed1's blog: "Disturbing Thoughts"

Who's fault is it?

When everything you want gets taken away

Who's really there,

all your freinds leave you abandond and cold on the street or in a hole,

What is going on?

What is truth of fact?

What is only a fake?

Eyes in lies i lay underneath,

disect me,

crucify me,

fires scortch my skin as i lay underneath,

consuming pain i can't feel anymore,

numbing cold is white hot,

and scrotching heat is ice blue,

betrayed, delayed,

only in these days,

i find my self alone and i see it in her face,

the power beneath me forces through,

jealousy takes my mind,

trembling i wait,

in disapearing hope,

i raise the oceans,

to finish what i wanted to start,

i lost you...

This is one of my favorite songs from Mushroomhead...it's how i feel right now... "Is there really anyone there, Fall on deaf ears all of my prayers, The mother of nothing, The mother of sin, The farther of decedance within us, A brother of suffering inside, Is there really anyone there, Why can't you look at me now? I hope you like what you've done to me, Drown in your misery, Waiting something new you made up, (When We give up it's never enough) Or this could be the day we rise, (When we give up it's never enough) I hope you like what you've done to me only through the thought of me, only through your suffering, Will you leanr to forget? Will you learn to forget, Through your suffering? I wonder why, Who will survive, When we try, With their lives," mushroomhead Savior Sarrow Twelve Hundred

I feel the day rise,

White hot sun burning my eyes,

They don't hear the world is crying,

Weeping for another day they come,

Don't see the horror of a fake,

They only see the blood they drip, (drip 2x)

They see no line between us in the light,

They only see the darkness you failed in,

Destroy all we created in image and creation,

I lay in my grave with a rose (dead on my chest),

The light covers my eyes and i am blinded by fire,

Tonight we rise no longer the victums of the image,

In flaming vengance and uncontroled (furry),

We walked away from the grave We (Arose Dead!)

This thing inside this place,

Is a living thing that can't be replaced,

It's a power,

a lust, never to rust,

Unrelenting furry and psychotics not mirrored,

Calm, Calm, Then the darkness decends,

Proving catalsyt to the mayhem,

Eternities children gather in cover of night,

To let the world see our fight,

Do not hesitate to move in push in,

Then the womb opens and the children dance,

The blood soaked womb is a fast,

Swirling, beating, breathing flying,

It is alive,

A new creature,

Born of furry,

Created for hunger,

We throw you in,

You can't get out,

so push, push, push...

And she comes,

breathing heavy she flowns,

waiting in rivers i choke,

waiting for the moment of birth,

my heart breaks it's cage,

i bring her damaged roses And she falls,

screaming my name,

she crawls,

breaking the water,

she touches the bank and waits,

cold and blue she waits dying,

i never knew why she frozen,

i bring her damaged roses And i broke,

my mind in fragments,

i awoke,

my eyes wide with fear,

as i climb to my feet,

the trees begin to speak,

i lost her today,

lost in the waters of waiting,

i brought her damaged roses...