I'm not proud,
Of the mistakes I've made,
But I don't deserve,
To watch the moments fade.
And the heart ache I carry,
The pain I hold,
And hidden in stories,
Memories never told.
What I could say,
I keep all inside,
I try to forget,
About the nights I've cried.
I'm learning to let go,
But it's hard right now,
I've stopped asking why,
Because I'll never know how.
The answers are unwritten,
Questions on my mind,
I've gotta walk away,
Try to leave it behind.
But it's so difficult,
I keep on falling,
I can hear voices,
Of the angels that are calling.
I can feel a void,
Pulling on the inside of me,
I'm trapped two ways,
I can't set the feeling free.
And all of my emotions,
Won't fall into place,
My solitary depression,
Won't leave this face.
So I keep on fighting,
Just to see the next day,
I pray for happiness,
Even though it's a long way.
And I lie in curiosity,
Wondering why I'm here,
So please let me go,
Let me disappear.
