MAX's blog: "Did I tell you I had an 8x10 Glossy of you..."

SO, JUST HOW DO YOU SAY SO LONG TO SOMEONE YOU NEVER REALLY MET? SOMEONE YOU NEVER TOUCHED OR FELT, BUT YET, THERE ARE FEELINGS, STRONG FEELINGS THAT YOU GET FROM THE TYPING, THE WORDS AND A PICTURE OF A SMILE A SMILE SHARED WITH THE WORLD BUT YOU TO NOT REGRET. I LEARNED FROM YOU AS FROM SO MANY OTHERS AND I KNOW THERE WAS, OH, SO MUCH MORE TO DISCOVER. HOW CAN YOU GIVE BACK A HEART THAT YOU HAD NEVER SEEN TO BEGIN WITH AND YET YOU OFFERED IT LIKE IT WAS REALLY YOURS WHILE THE WORLD LOOKED ON BUT THEY NEVER HEARD THE TYPING OF OUR FINGERS THAT WERE OUR ONLY WORDS SO HERE I AM THINKING THAT I?LL MISS YOUR PICTURE THE WORDS ON THE SCREEN AND YOUR LITTLE TYPED WINKIE ;-) BUT NEVER A TOUCH, NOT EVEN A PINKIE MUCH LESS LIPS AND ARMS AND LEGS AND SWEAT OR A LITTLE KINKY JUST LITTLE EMOTICONS ALL RUN TOGETHER IT FELT LIKE I NEVER REALLY KNEW YOU AT ALL BECAUSE EVERY SITE I CRUISED TO YOU WERE ANOTHER SO THEN HOW COULD I KNOW WHICH ONE WAS REALLY YOU WHEN TYPING AND PICTURES WAS ALL THERE WAS TO MAKE ONE THINK OF FARAWAY SMILES THE KIND THAT GET IN YOU AND STAY FOR AWHILE AND YOU SUCH A MASTER A REAL ONE AND ONLY A SMILE ON A SCREEN, THAT?S ALL THERE WAS FOR ME HONEY. FOR HERE IN MY HOME WHERE EVERYTHING?S REAL I HAVE ALL THAT I LOVE AND THESE THINGS I FEEL I PLAY MY SWEET MUSIC THAT YOU NEVER HEARD I KISS ALL THE GIRLS AND THEY HEAR MY WORDS THEY?RE TRUE AND THEY?RE LOVING AND CARING AND BOLD THEY?RE CLEAVER AND WITTY AND SOMETIMES THEY?RE COLD BUT ITS ME THAT THEY HEAR NOT JUST SOME LITTLE THREE INCH SPEAKER. MADE UP OF WIRES AND ETHERNET CABLES, RJ45 AND BNC CONNECTORS AND YET THERE WAS SOMETHING THERE?SPARKLING, ELECTRIC I?LL REMEMBER AND ENJOY THOSE THOUGHTS AND THOSE VINGETS LIKE THEY WERE REAL TIMES THAT HAVE NEVER EVER BEEN YET, AND I?LL THINK OF YOU WITH FRIENDSHIP AND COMPASSION LIKE A DREAM THAT I?D LOVED BUT THEN QUICKLY PASSES I?LL ALWAYS BE TRUE TO THOSE VISIONS I CREATED OF US THOSE GHOSTS OF SOME PASSION THAT WE NEVER KNEW BUT THEN SOME OTHER DAY IN A TIME WE CAN?T SEE THOSE GHOST DREAMS MAY MEET AND MIGHT REALLY BE YOU SEE THE FUTURE?S NOT OURS TO KNOW OR TO SEE AND IT ALL COULD HAPPEN, IT ALL COULD COME TRUE I?LL KNOW WHEN I SEE YOU WHO YOU REALLY ARE BUT 'TIL THEN YOU?RE A PICTURE, A SCREEN AND A SMILE WE?LL MEET THEN SOME DAY AND WE?LL BE AS FRIENDS THAT LIKE SHIPS IN THE DARK CAME TOGETHER AND THEN WE?LL KNOW IF THAT DREAM OF IMAGINED LOVE WAS A TRIAL OR A FUTURE WITH ONE ANOTHER, AND KISSES, YOUR SMILE UNTIL THAT DAY COMES AND WE RUN TOGETHER I?LL DREAM OF MY FRIEND, MY SWEET, SWEET FRIEND THAT I NEVER KNEW. I?LL BE HERE FOR YOU IF YOU EVER SHOULD NEED ME BUT UNTIL THAT DAY? AU REVIOR, AND I?LL MISS YOU.

Live life to the fullest as you read in my lines and don't live to say:"I could have!" Love all to the depths of your heart and never regret it, for both are so precious and fleeting. You have now, right now in this life, so make it all that you can give of your mind, body and heart. And when your days are numbered and your time is near you will not know fear, For you can look into the void and scream: "I have lived, I have loved, come take me now!"

Now, there are many, many people in the world, but relatively few with whom we interact, and even fewer who cause us problems. So, when you come across such a chance for practicing patience and tolerance, you should treat it with gratitude. It is rare. Just as having unexpectedly found a treasure in your own house, you should be happy and grateful to your enemy for providing that precious opportunity. -His Holiness the Dalai Lama

Not everyone is holy enough and healthy enough to have a front row seat in our lives.There are some people in your life that need to be LOVED FROM A DISTANCE. It's amazing what you can accomplish when you let go, or at least minimize your time with draining, negative, incompatible, not-going anywhere relationships, friendships, and fellowships! Observe the relationships around you. Pay attention to: Which ones lift and which ones lean? Which ones encourage and which ones discourage? Which ones are on a path of growth up hill and which ones are going down hill? When you leave certain people, do you feel better or feel worse? Which ones always have drama or don't really understand, know and appreciate you and the gifts that lie within you? The more you seek the God head and the things of God...the more you seek quality, the more you seek not just the hand of God but the face of God the more you seek things honorable...the more you seek growth, peace of mind, love and truth around you, the easier it will become for YOU to decide who gets to sit in the FRONT ROW SEATS and who should be moved to the upper balcony of your life. You cannot change the people around you...but you can change the people you are around! Ask the God head for wisdom and discernment and choose wisely the people who sit in the front rows of your life.

LOVE IS LIKE HOMEMADE SOUP.... EVERY TIME YOU TAKE IT OUT OF THE FRIDGE AND PUT THE HEAT BACK ON AND WARM IT UP...... IT JUST GETS BETTER

Did I tell you I had an 8x10 Glossy of you... and have it on my desk? I get to see you all the time. So when things aren't going well or my candle not glowing bright I just come look at you and things are alright. As you've said so many times before no one knows where all of this may lead and that's for sure. All I know is that you are my friend and that's all that counts in the end. Some one that always brings you up not down, someone that makes your day better even when they're not around. Some one that you can always say I love you to and not have to worry that your heart will be broken, torn or abused. Some one that just happened by fate to come into your life and not by mistake become a part of you and make you feel that it's never too late. I want to smell your hair and run my fingers through it and look into your eyes and be lost in love's grasp and tell you how much I need you at last. I want to hold you in my arms and squeeze you so tight that you'll feel yourself that's implanted your spirit so fully in my heart. Even if none of this will ever come true for the joy that you've brought to me I'll forever thank you for just being my friend and saying I love you. I Love You