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Well the plane ride was nice..didnt think this labtop would work, but it did. Most of the gang have checked in and are at the casino. I am here with my kids, who are asleep from the trip online. I thought for a moment they would be scared, but my friends are so sweet to bring them each a toy to play with. My girl got a Barbie doll, my son got Spiderman, hee hee. They both handle the plane ride fine, and I'm glad. It is so nice here, 71 degrees and sunny. Wow, we left the coldness of NC behind-they are under a freeze watch tonight, and it is nice here. Lots of Motley Crue fans here already. I might just take a nap, but the gang and I will go to the Rio Hotel later on..someone heard of a party going on. My kids will be taken care of with some dear friends of mine. I am glad they are here with me, but I do believe that I will let my hair down and really have some erotic fun tonight. I am way overdue for this. Wish some special friends of mine were here..we'll will just have a toast to them.

These past few days with my friends from NYC have been great. It has given me a new lease on life & love itself. I know now why they are staying, they are taking me away for the weekend..VEGAS BABY!! We are all diehard fans of Aerosmith, and they are playing at the MGM Grand in Las Vegas, that is their graduation present to me. We saw recently at the Alltel Pavilion in Raleigh, NC & I had checked on the official Aerosmith site.. They along with Motley Crue are playing in Vegas this Saturday. My friends has had this planned for months, and we are taking my kids with me.. I have packed most of what we need and will all be back by Sunday evening. I'm taking my labtop with me, and some of the gals have theirs, so I will check my emails and post from time to time. Say a little prayer for us, we leave tomorrow afternoon when the kids get home from school. Will be back on later tonite or tomorrow morning. I am just too excited about this..WOW!!

Today, I realize that I had missed my NYC ways(not looking back on the past, doing what I wanna do, pleasing myself, etc) and since my NYC friends have been here for a few days, I am getting back what I left behind & start all over again. I miss my creative, intimate, naughty and passionate ways I feel towards people and now I am gaining back by writing in my journals, blogs, and reading some poetry..Man, this feels like I am being reborn and I love it..Perhaps,this creativity can be reflected in doing some PSP8 stuff soon. I want to do a special couples tag with some words from one of my favorite Aerosmith songs. I love life always, and feel blessed to be surrounded by such loving and passionate friends in NY and cannot forget the sweet friends online that I have met in recent years. I cherish every moment being with them and love my new attitude!

Today my new beginning in life begun when I got my Associates Degree of Arts & Sciences from this local community College in NC..With the love and support of my kids, and friends from NYC,,I am going back to school online to get my Bachelors Degree in Education in January of 2007. I am gonna once again take the Teachers Aid Entrance Exam in December(I tried it last month, but missed it by 10pts), so I can do it again. It was because of too much stress, taking the finals online and getting some negative feedback from my family members and a former beau, that I missed it, but not again. I know what the test consists of and what to watch out for, so I will be ok. Now, as for my love life, well I am still going through with my divorce, because my hubby doesnt support me or the kids. I am free to do what I want and who I see. I am speaking to someone far away from me, and want this to work so bad. He is a sweet man who works his ass off and we barely spend time talking to each other, but they mean so much when we do. I want this to work so bad and wish he was here with me now..He would have loved meeting my friends and of course we would spend some intimate time together...I dont wanna blow this, so I guess we will take this nice & slow like we agreed upon, but really miss him and love him on this special day.. I love where my life is heading and look forward to many new encounters and lots of excitement. I am way overdue for this and am gonna enjoy this day and my new beginning in life & love.

I am having a tough time sleeping because I am about to receive my Associates Degree of Arts & Sciences from college today. Despite the obstacles of non-support from family members, and someone who I thought would stand by me, I am getting this degree with the love & support of my kids and friends from NYC. I have some cool friends online and wish they were here...If I name them, we would be here for a while..but let me say that I love them so much and am glad that I know them. Do u sometimes feel that sometimes u feel all hope is lost, then something good comes along and makes it all better? Well, that is how I feel in getting this degree and in love..I dont want it ever to go away..I want this feeling to last forever & forever!

I hate when someone who is my friend, or who I love feels down, or when I feel down & out..something about this song makes me feels better and gets me through the tough times.. So to anyone who feels down and out, or just loves this group..this is for u!! With love Dianna ~~SILENT LUCIDITY~~ QUEENSRYCHE Hush now, don't you cry Wipe away the teardrop from your eye You're lying safe in bed It was all a bad dream Spinning in your head Your mind tricked you to feel the pain Of someone close to you leaving the game of life So here it is, another chance Wide awake you face the day Your dream is over... or has it just begun? There's a place I like to hide A doorway that I run through in the night Relax child, you were there But only didn't realize it and you were scared It's a place where you will learn To face your fears, retrace the years And ride the whims of your mind Commanding in another world Suddenly you hear and see This magic new dimension I- will be watching over you I- am gonna help you see it through I- will protect you in the night I- am smiling next to you, in Silent Lucidity [spoken during solo] (Visualize your dream) (Record it in the present tense) (Put it into a permanent form) (If you persist in your efforts) (You can achieve dream control) (Dream control) (How's that then, better?) (Hug me) If you open your mind for me You won't rely on open eyes to see The walls you built within Come tumbling down, and a new world will begin Living twice at once you learn You're safe from the pain in the dream domain A soul set free to fly A round trip journey in your head Master of illusion, can you realize Your dream's alive, you can be the guide but... I- will be watching over you I- am gonna help to see it through I- will protect you in the night I- am smiling next to you....

When I listen to the music of Sting, I am reminded of how love is and his words have so much passion and feelings..I was talking to a certain englishman who has ticked my fancy and was playing this song...It made me realize that I am worth being in love and that there is someone out there for me..I am glad this song was playing.. "Desert Rose" I dream of rain I dream of gardens in the desert sand I wake in pain I dream of love as time runs through my hand I dream of fire Those dreams are tied to a horse that will never tire And in the flames Her shadows play in the shape of a man's desire This desert rose Each of her veils, a secret promise This desert flower No sweet perfume ever tortured me more than this And as she turns This way she moves in the logic of all my dreams This fire burns I realize that nothing's as it seems I dream of rain I dream of gardens in the desert sand I wake in pain I dream of love as time runs through my hand I dream of rain I lift my gaze to empty skies above I close my eyes This rare perfume is the sweet intoxication of her love I dream of rain I dream of gardens in the desert sand I wake in pain I dream of love as time runs through my hand Sweet desert rose Each of her veils, a secret promise This desert flower No sweet perfume ever tortured me more than this Sweet desert rose This memory of Eden haunts us all This desert flower This rare perfume, is the sweet intoxication of the love

I just read my girfriend's post on love, and I felt compelled to remember that love is out there for me, and will happen when I least expected. Patience is important and not to rush into things is a must. I want the person to really know who I am, what I stand for and really share my love for life. No casual occurance, life is too short, need to cherish every waking moment for what is worth. I want to take it nice and slow, but to let the guy know that I am his and no one elses..I am a one man woman and will be true and honest with him always. I want him to explore my passionate desires for intimatcy, and see my naughty side & passionate side as well. Yep, love is out there, and I know it will happen to me. It did before, and it will again..So, if there any passionate, intimate, honest, and soft spoken men who are not afraid to express themselves, I am here...but remember,,I dont want no drama and no lying!! Be true and honest with me, ok?

I am so glad that my friend Chas told me about this place...lots of hotties to have fun, flirt, and make new friends....I wanna let my thoughts, feelings and some grips come out here and get some feedback..but mostly,,just wanna meet some new people and taste some 'Hot Cherries", lol. Be nice to me and I will do the same, but let me let u know, I can get a little naughty(sexually that is), lol..so be prepared..lol Huggs..Dianna