Cold's blog: "depressed"

I am actually single now and it sucks ass. I hate this feeling. I doubt anyone will go out with me now. I think the single life sucks ass

yesterday I talked to my gf and she was like what happens if she cheats would I take her back. I don't know why she would think such a thing like that if she loves me. She was like well I like to go out to clubs and what happens if I get drunk and get hit on? I don't do good with getting hit on she said that if she got hit on she would probably have sex with the guy. I don't know how to answer that question. I mean I love her and all but I don't know if I would take her back because it's a trust thing and I wouldn't be able to trust her again.

I finally made the next step in my relationship with my gf I told her I trust her and she trusts me. She is thinking about me now instead of her ex and it makes me so happy and she is coming to see me this summer :)

my ex wife is moving to washington with my son to live with this guy she met over the internet and I won't probably see him for the time I'm supposed to this summer. I think she did this on purpose and is only thinking of herself I mean she has moved my son from place to place sence we have been apart. The first guy was verbally abusive to my son and treated him like he was in the army. The next guy supposedly treated him good. But see she has only talked to this guy over the internet and they haven't seen eachother so when she moves it will be the first time. What I am worried about is will the guy be nice to my son?

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I think that my gf is cheating on me I mean might not be but she is out with some "friends" she hasn't called me tonight like she always does and she seemed kinda suspisious when we talked earlier on the phone. I mean I have had this done to me in the past this is why I feel that she is cheating on me. I know I'm gonna get reamed out for this blog but it is how I feel I mean it sucks that I feel this way and I love her but you know how most of the time your gut feeling is usually right.

just got a message on msn from my ex saying that the toy I got him was a piece of shit it didn't last a day. Then she went on to say that she was pissed at me because I didn't send a christmas card to him and that I didn't love him anymore and that I was like her ex boyfriend. I feel like shit now and I shouldn't I did my best

well I called my son and for once she answered but I only talked to him for a few seconds and he said a few words that I didn't know and then I asked the bitch what he said and she said he said am I home meaning if I was home and then she said your waisting my minutes and hung up on me

I just don't seem to understand why my ex is being a bitch I called my son yesterday and she has not let him call me back. I just hate it when she is like this. I have no clue what the hell I'm supposed to do. I have not heard from him in 3 days and it sucks

today was supposed to be the best day of my life but it turned into the shittyst day ever. I am here in maine to see my son which is a good thing but my ex wife was a bitch and wouldn't follow the court order saying that he was supposed to spend the night with me. So we had to go to the police and have them call her and she told them that I could only have him til 7:00 tonight. So we went to pick him up and I found out he remembered me and he hugged me and wouldn't let go. The ex had to come to the hotel where we are staying and had to stay for an hour to make sure he was ok. Then she left. 5:00 rolls around and my son starts to get tired and he wanted to go home so I called her and ordered some pizza. When she came she started accusing me of leaving the hotel with my son and not telling her where I was when I never did leave the hotel. It was my sister and her husband and kids that left the hotel not me. Any way she stormed out of my hotel room and slammed the door. she told me that she isn't going to trust me with my own son ever again. How fucking fair is that?