I have a feeling that I just can't shake,
living with these feelings are about all I can take.
I always just knew that I would be different than my mother,
but, I have grown up to be just like her.
I love my mother, but I never knew how she put up with so much,
I know now that you can love someone and still hate there every touch.
I know now that after several years of just the right amount of anger,
you could easily end up married to a complete stranger.
I have this feeling that I just can't shake,
living with these feelings are about all I can take.
I just don't have the time for the things I love to do,
because, everything I go to do the kids have got to try it too.
I'm a independent and confident woman stuck in a old woman's life,
but, I don't know what to do to get out of the rut of being the bitchy housewife.
I've been to college to get my perfect career,
just more time wasted, is my biggest fear.
I have a feeling that I just can't shake,
living with these feelings are about all I can take.
I have had a close call with death, and I'm still around,
It seems now I have a hunger for life, that I just haven't found.
I know the life I want is within my reach,
but, I already have a life with two children waiting for me to teach.
I know that they are learning all the wrong things, like anger and fear,
they get scared when they see momma wiping her face from a tear.
This is the life I chose, I have to try to repair it, to make it worth living,
I sure don't want my children to think they have to take everything that they are given.
I know now why my mother always begged us to learn from her mistakes,
just one woman to break the curse and hopefully that is all it takes.
I want my children to never think that they have to settle for anything less than great,
they should find a person that is so perfect, that it has got to be fait.
