The dreams I most often write about are the ones that awake me from their intensely realistic and intimate experience. I just awoke from one.
It was a beautiful majestic night.. With a warm breeze that felt magical as the air tingled your senses and stimulated the moment. As I neared the door; my heart raced as the adrenaline soared. This felt more like my first date ever then just our first date. The black leather flat toed euro style shoes I was wearing made a clack sound every step I took on the side walk to her front door. With every sound the tension heightened.
Till I got to her door and rang the bell, I could see my own reflection in the glass door that sat in front of the actual front door. The porch light was just enough to make out my dark pants and the light blue, white, and dark blue striped button up. The stripes went from top left to lower right at an angle. Very symbolic to how much I wanted this to be a special night. It was my favorite shirt.
Suddenly my concentration was shattered as the door abruptly opened. Where I was greeted with a very quickly comforting and warmth-inspiring smile.
She stepped out the door and stepped near me to take my hand I could feel the warm breath of her words tingle the senses down my neck. As her words "Hello Christopher" left her lips I simply smiled in a very brief moment that felt like forever. She was absolutely beautiful. Her Dark hair flowing like silk in the gentle warm breeze and the sparkle in her moist dark eyes. Her skin shined with perfection and the soft touch of her hand in mine. Sent my senses soaring. Her stunning black evening dress sparkled in light. Before I managed to breathe out. "Hello Sweetheart"
As we walked to the car the warm breeze continued to soothe and calmed my senses as I opened the door for her and then proceeded to drive us off into the dusk of a nearly ending beautiful day.
As we drove the music was soothing and the weather was perfect. With the T-Tops out and the warm air instilling such a peaceful sense of tranquility. I kept looking over every few minutes and smiling or making small chitchat to her while driving. It was like I had to keep reassuring my self were finally alone and on out on our first date.
As we crossed the bridge that ran through the center of downtown once again I kept thinking to my self. This is such a magical night and everything felt so right. The energy was right. The comfort was right. My senses were soaring. I've never felt so alive. I took a right after the bridge and pulled into the restaurant on the river where they had a balcony out over the river.
As I pulled in I got out of the car and walked around to open the door for her. Gave her my hand and helped her out. Closing the door her hand never left mine till I opened the door for her at the restaurant and guided her in. At which time she took her arm and wrapped it in my left arm. Reassuring me she felt safe with me.
As we sat over dinner on the river we had a wonderful meal and excellent conversation. Till I noticed the sun was nearly gone. I took her hand and guided her to the edge of the balcony. I placed her in front of me and wrapped my arms around her. Where she folded her arms up and hugging my forearms. Almost like cuddling together while standing.
We watched the sunset together while being taken in by the moment. It was breathtaking and beautiful yet comforting knowing she was safe in my arms and that I could always protect her. As I tilted my mouth down towards her ear, I said to her. "You'll always be safe in my arms."
She suddenly turned around and wrapped her arms around me then laying her head on my shoulder she says. "Christopher, I love you so much. I always feel so vulnerable yet so safe with you." Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and I could feel her breath like electricity tingling my senses up my neck across my cheek and to my lips where she placed her lips to mine.
The moment seemed to last forever. The very threads of the fabric of time seemed to unravel, as the moment shot through me like electricity shooting throughout my entire body. When it seemed like if the kiss lasted any longer I would just die, we kissed deeper and more passionately. When our lips parted we both seemed to pause and take a deep breath as if the chemistry was more intense then anything we experienced. She looks in my eyes and says. "Christopher, I want you so bad. I need you."
I took her hand and guided her back to the table. The Waiter returned and asked if we would like desert. At which moment she looked me in the eyes with a coy smile and winked. I told the waiter no thanks and paid the check.
While walking out of the restaurant a good friend of mine approached and said, "hey Chris what’s up man? How ya doin?" I just said, "I'm great having a wonderful night here with my beautiful date". He seemed to know her and said "hey.... how ya doing". Yet it was almost as if I went deaf and I couldn't hear him say her name. Yet she smiled and said she was doing fine... He invited us out to the club but he said they were closing the doors in 5 mins and we needed to run over there so we could get in the back of the club. He knew the bouncer "DBOL" who watched the back door. Said he could get us in.
She took off her heels and said. "I guess we better get to running. Let's race" As she took off running we ran off behind her. As the 3 of us crossed the sidewalk and neared the hall way like corridors of the bridge sidewalk and down into the club I could see her a few feet in front of me then out of no where she just vanished. As we looked for her she was nowhere to be found. A bouncer who was known as Primo asked me what I was looking for. As I suddenly felt overwhelmed and that I failed to keep her safe I awoke...
I woke up very sad and like I just lost someone I love so greatly. Yet I'm currently not seeing anyone or have that kind of interest with someone I've never taken out. What is the metaphorical meaning behind this dream? Once again this mysterious wonderful woman will haunt my thoughts and dreams. Has the domino effect of dreams returned? Will I dream every night for months on end of a magical woman who I'll never meet again.
A few years ago, I was haunted for almost 6 months with these dreams of this dark haired magical woman who never felt more alive and realistic. I fear they may have returned. What is it my subconscious seeks? What closure is it my mind needs?
