decisions arent always easy some right some wrong but we all have to make em. someone i care about made a decision to move the other day and a long ways away and in with someone else. she said she needed to clear her head maybe she does but i'm smart enough to know she's going to be different he'll change her and i know she wont be coming back this way and i wont see her again. she told me once i scared her cause she never had anyone that cared about her like i did or was as good to her hell i was just being honest and being myself around her which was easy to do and i dont do good being around people. i live my life a lot differently than most look at things do things different and never had it easy dont get me wrong i wont complaiin about it thing was she never judged me or looked down at me like a lot do and once again i am smart enough to know i wont have that again so why look. now i guess its my turn to make some tough decisions mostly with some recent health problems the treatments are far worse than problem and with no guarantees this time so i made a decision after tonights treatment enough was enough and decided to take whatever comes a long and pretty much live each day my way and the way i think i should. never cared what people said or thought about me never will too much a waste of my time so my decision is not to worry about tomorrow take what i got and just get thru today and maybe i might be here tomorrow maybe not but i tried
