I temporally lost my mind. For this I am sorry, but don't we all at some point in time? I think this is a major downfall in being female for me. Had I been a guy I wouldn't have cared. Would have just said oh well I'll hear back at some point. Eventually, to use one of your words. I hate that word, along with maybe and we'll see. They all take my control away.
I miss understood you when you said you were going out. Thought you meant for the night not the weekend and when I hadn't heard anything from you I began to worry. Again it is a female thing, or rather as I like to think of it an Ashley thing. When I care for or about someone I worry about them whether warranted or not. I sat there saying "Why the hell am I texting again? He probably left for the weekend that's why you haven't heard anything." But then the other part of my head would kick in and say "but something could have happened. He wouldn't go out of town without his phone would he? He didn't say he was going out for the weekend just said out! What if something really bad happened?" You know it WAS a holiday weekend. People do drink and drive even if you don't. Accidents are common on this particular weekend. Sorry I cared.
While I didn't and don't love you. I could have easily see my self falling in love with you. But I did, do, and aways will care and wish the best for you. I never demanded anything of you. Just asked for little of your time, a good laugh, and a hug. I never complained about your long, late hours or not being able to see you, even though I did wish I could see you more often then I said. I know you like what you do.
I write this feeling as though I've lost a friend, probably have by the text you left, but I'm so confused at the moment. Scared to ask. Just want a hug and to have someone kick me really hard so that I feel I have a reason to cry rather than just feeling lost and alone.
Not that you'll read this or anything thing but good luck. To quote Toy Story "You've always got a friend in me"
