Dear Baby Brother,
The last few days have been filled with tears, regrets, and anger! I think about all the times we had growing up and how I used to tease you. I know we all have grown up and let the past go as part of growing up but I feel regrets for everything now. I feel regret for all the times I didnt pick up the phone to call and say hey, i took that luxury for granted.I look at all the petty BS that cause so much chaos in peoples lives and it makes me angry how such stupid little unimportant things cause familys to drift apart and not speak. I know I didnt tell you this but I was very proud of you and the way you where chasing your dreams finally. I keep thinking this is just a crazy dream and that I will wake up and your still here but I know its not and its hard to know I will never see you again! I can never call you and tell you the news of whats going on in our lives and I feel sick! I dont understand why this happend you had so much to live for!. I am so thankful that you have this amazing woman you spent the last 3 years with and I hope you know how much she loved you and what a wonderful person she is damn bro you where blessed there! With all the thoughts and regrets going thru my mind I still know I will be ok and thats what makes this even harder for me cuz we had no clue you had anything going on that would cause this. Brother please know I love you and will truley miss you