I've noticed, ever since DJCRAZYBACONBITS left this world, and this site, I feel like it took a big piece out of it. I haven't been really interested at all. I try. I come back for a day or two and leave it at that, but he's gone... and it's crazy how someone can change your life, and then they disappear and your life can never seem to go back to the way it used to be without them. I miss you... :(
To know that my boyfriend likes older women. =/
Ugh. :(
Never again do I wanna see you there... laying lifelessly... any person that has made me who I am today. I never wanna see you just fucking lay there and not breathe.
Now I can't get that image out of my mind. I can't even think back to 3 days before, because when I think of you, a lifeless you is all I see :( And I never thought I'd ever remember you like that, but I did and I do :'(
Hearing your voice is like a patch. It sorta mends the thoughts going through the mind. Are you okay? Are you still breathing? Its a temporary relief, and in some cases a voice is all you got. If I had my choice, I wouldn't talk, but I'd be missing out on your voice. It's a little patch for that huge whole that can't be completely healed. It doesn't fix it all, but it's something. Better than nothing. I'm glad I got to hear your voice, just wish I can hug you once more. I just wish you knew.
So, really. I come onto Fubar. Lots a nice people. But I'm kinda sick of the virtual world. Sometimes, a person needs reality. I want reality to be on my side for once as opposed to the virtual world.
So maybe I do suck at life. anyway. i hate you online... even though I'm soo much cooler... =/
Not sure anymore. Lately, I haven't been hungry. Since I know I should eat, I try to, but when I do, my stomach upsets me :( I don't like it. I don't know why either. I hope it's not like stomach cancer or anything. :/ I mean, yay if I'm losing weight, but lol
I think he's hot.
&& I wanna get to know him.
I don't know how to start a conversation with him.
&& I wish I could say I like him alot, but I don't. Cause I don't even know him.
Maybe I can get up my courage one day :]
Not on fubar do I wish, but this is where I wish to blog.
I wish one day, I'll meet an awesome guy. A little good lookin; may I add? A hopeless romantic- church goer, who loves me and unconditionally and has an undying attraction toward me.
One day do I wish to lose all my eight, and be super hot, but still be me. One day, I wish to have a family that loves me so.
One day, I just wish to be loved.
Love
me
I like it. It's keeping me entertained :D I need a lap top with internet connection so I can actually get on whenever I can or want to! :D