Jaykob's blog: "My life"

Well I'm guessing nobody will read this, so I'm not going to bother putting a whole lot of backstory in this and if you do read and care, then just ask away, I have nothing to hide, and if not, thanks for the rate if you did and have a good day.

The backstory I will give, I am currently going through a divorce because my soon to be ex woke up after 8 years and instead of ever telling me what her issues were with the relationship were she just said she couldn't be happy with me.  It sucks, but I try not to hold animosity, our relationship was toxic anyways and taking the forced step back makes me realize that.

Now comes what sucks though, I am damn near 30 years old and scared to death of meeting people.  I know, once I get to know someone I'm great and can talk about anything for hours, even if it's something I know nothing about, I can sit there and absorb like a sponge, but that first step terrifies the crap out of me.  I can't just walk up to someone and say hi, never have been able to.  I'm not saying that I want to go and find my next girlfriend tonight, I'm still too fucked in the head to be even a worthwhile boyfriend, but I would love an opportunity to get to know people, my circle of friends is very small and all very busy people which just leaves me with work and masturbation, and well, internet porn gets old after a while..:D  Oh yeah, for those of you who don't know me, which currently is everyone, I have a habiof diffusing situations or cheering myself up with sexual jokes and comments, this is your only warning.  The idea of restarting my life though really does just freak me out and is causing me all kinds of fuckery in my head (and yes, fuckery is a word, google that shit).

Other than that though, I had a great day today, picked up my best friend Nikki and went to the piercing shop, now I've had over a hundred piercings in my life, so for a piercer to impress me takes a lot, but this chick was bad ass, made me feel comfortable, and had the perfect mix of professionalism and friendliness, she has made a repeat customer.  Plus the new eyebrow ring is lined up so perfectly with the old one that I'm amazed and the new lip ring is perfect which is difficult for some of the piercers I've seen in my life due too the massive amounts of scar tissue I have since this makes the 9th time I've had a lip ring in that spot.  Hopefully I'll have some new pics up soon to show them off.

Well, I'm going to finish out my pic rates now and head to bed, I can't believe I can run out of them so quick, I remember my old profile where I was about a half step from level 20 and vip, I never ran out of rates, every now and then I ran out of pic comments when I bombed, but never rates, and now I can do it in like 25 minutes.

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