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Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
hmmmm, this is gonna be a tuffy...i honestly don't get hurt or upset, mad, etc., often BUT when i do it usually lasts a while. SO boy that broke my heart about 7/8 months ago? this is to you :)
dear kyle,
I HATE YOU SO MUCH! you made me so fucking happy, &i could tell i did the same for you then you seriously just up and left me out of no where. we was on a level i've never had with a guy. guys like you are the reason it took so long to trust you, once you finally gained that trust &i was just beginning to be 'okay' with the fact that we was legality dating you leave me for some ugly fat lesbian....thanks babe, that really made me feel SO FUCKING AWESOME about myself. I took you to my home, i let you meet my family, and my best friends, i let you get so close to me, i told you shit i've never told anyone, i can honestly say i have never, ever let a guy into my life as deep and fast as you did. do you understand how embarrassed i was? how hurt i was? you are so fucking ignorant. i hate myself so much for letting you into my life, for getting so close to you. i spent all that time and effort for us, and now theres nothing to show for it. what gets me the most is that it was YOU who wanted to start hanging out more, YOU are the one who wanted to keep going out on dates, YOU wanted to meet my family and friends, it was YOUR idea we start dating...i never, not once asked for any of that bullshit, i didnt want it, nor did i need it. but now i do, i need you so bad....i need youre awkward hugs, youre perfect keesses. i miss our cuddling, that 6'5 lanky frame of yours was and still is one of a kind in my eyes. i miss my cuddle bug. i miss going out with you to places, and to parties. oh parties! they arent the same without you, a guy gets fresh with me and theres no one to save me. i look around the room &theres not a soul looking back at me making 'the face'. i get out of school with no sexy pictures of you in uniform, or voice mails saying how much you miss me. i still never have plans on fridays just because i'm so use to just saying home &watching old cartoons still. and the list goes on and on.....so while youre making wedding arrangements with your new fiance, in youre new perfect little life- i'm still stuck here with our old one but i'm realizing all i can do now is keep praying to god, and beg him to bring me someone like you- only better. xoxo, youre ex- ky bug :)
PS. it seriously took all i had to NOT call the fort you was staying at &tell them you have butt sex with the guy you bunk with. HAAAAAAH, you have a fucking grade-a time over there in the middle east bitch
