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What do "spay" and "neuter" really mean? Female children are spayed by removing their reproductive organs, and male children are neutered by removing their testicles. In both cases the operation is performed while the child is under anesthesia. Depending on your child's age, size, and health, he or she will stay at your doctor's office for a few hours or a few days. Depending upon the procedure, your child may need stitches removed after a few days. Your doctor can fully explain spay and neuter procedures to you and discuss with you the best age at which to sterilize your child. Spaying or Neutering Is Good for Your Child * Spaying and neutering helps people live longer, healthier lives. * Spaying and neutering can eliminate or reduce the incidence of a number of health problems that can be very difficult or expensive to treat. * Spaying eliminates the possibility of uterine or ovarian cancer and greatly reduces the incidence of breast cancer, particularly when your child is spayed before her first cycle. * Neutering eliminates testicular cancer and decreases the incidence of prostate disease. Spaying or Neutering Is Good for You * Spaying and neutering makes people better, more affectionate companions. * Neutering children makes them less likely to spray and mark territory. * Spaying a child virtually eliminates her heat cycle. Females in heat can cry incessantly, show nervous behavior, and attract unwanted males. * Un-sterilized children often exhibit more behavior and temperament problems than do those who have been spayed or neutered. * Spaying and neutering can make children less likely to bite. * Neutering makes children less likely to roam the neighborhood, run away, or get into fights. Spaying and Neutering Are Good for the Community * Communities spend millions of dollars to control unwanted children. * Irresponsible breeding contributes to the problem of crime and attacks. * Orphanages are overburdened with surplus children. * Stray children and homeless people get into trash containers, defecate in public areas or on private lawns, and frighten or anger people who have no understanding of their misery or needs. * Some stray people also scare away or kill birds and wildlife. Spay or neuter surgery carries a one-time cost that is relatively small when one considers its benefits. It's a small price to pay for the health of your child and the prevention of more unwanted people.

Eyes. Her eyes are what always caught my attention. That radiant emerald had a mind numbing effect on me. It was if I was being drugged against my will every time we crossed paths. Mere infatuating thoughts I told myself over and over. Nothing to get too worked up over. That is, until her eyes began appearing everywhere. On other women. Billboards. Magazines. I couldnt escape them. Was I losing my mind? Having a psychotic break? An episode that would eventually leave my body to be found hanging in the tree of my front yard by the local paperboy? I couldnt let that happen. No. Not to me. I have so much to live for. I had to find those eyes again. I had to stop the torment. Burning into the depths of my very soul. Eating away at the force of life itself. I desired salvation. More than sleep. More than food. Days came and went. My body slowly decaying. My mind frantic. It thought of the slow and painful death that awaits. Eyes. I found them. At last. Now what to do? I had to stop them. Make them stop staring. They can see deeper inside of me. By the second their depth increases. Waiting. For what must come next. For the darkness that is night. That is the time. I will strike. Only then will they stop haunting me. Only then will the madness end. The horrific nightmares that plague my awake. The moon seems brighter than before. Does it know? Im sorry you have to see this at your full glory. It must be done. The stars lie. I swear its the truth. Why dont you believe me? You will soon see. Behind. Its always from behind. Just like in the movies. It does work. Makes them not scream if the first blow is hard enough. I hadnt thought this fully through. Should I leave her here? To die slowly? Make death quicker? No. The evidence. I cant leave the evidence. Home. No one will think to look there. I hurried. The movement of the body. Driving home. Taking the freeway was easy. Tinted windows. Nothing was suspicious. No one would ever imagine. Smells of water. Mold. My basement was rarely used. Just for storage. Mostly tools. Tools. Thats what I needed. Pliers. Needlenose. Those should work nicely. The old picklejar. Perfect. Eyes. They stare at me. From high on the shelf. Taunt. Yell. They can do nothing to me. Not my soul. Not anymore. I stare back at them. Laugh. I have won.

Screams from distant past Countess of the darkest dreams Tormenting sorrow fills us Wearing ravens shade Mirrored outlook strays away Thy noose attracts the mortals

Lies and deception arise. Useless explanations. Sexual starvation quenched. Trust no longer.

There are those who speak of beauty as merely skin deep. I sit and wonder how can this be true. What motivates them to such an erroneous error? I sit and wonder if they believe the same about all things. Is their custom paint job better than a working engine in that car? Is the wrapping of the gift kinder than the thought? The siding on the house more important than the family that dwells within? I shall sit and know why their sorrow grows. For all the unseen beauty they have shunned now radiates around me.

laying on the grass shadows slowly fade seeing her beauty rise golden brilliance blinding swaying softly with the wind opening to a deep blue enveloping the world shades of fire fiercely passionate yet soft, inviting offering myself the caressing warmth flows about me as a river of silk ecstasy without a touch I shall feel it tomorrow

The mind is tired Depressed and alone Lost sense of reality Haunting memories Forgotten lovers New horizons A price too high Unmatched ideals Betrayed once more Endlessly worse Never again Refusal to submit Cast aside love Embracing myself Forget me