Necromancer's blog: "Dark Poetry"

There is a problem with me, I am blind, but I still see, I see the ruin of the nation, I see the birth of creation, I see things that haven’t come yet, I know people that I haven’t met, I see the fall of the poorer races, I see the bodies of the dead, their faces, I see the rise of evil Kings, I see the birth of devils with wings, I see things that a human should not, I see through the defence of the emperor, his one weak spot, There is a problem with me, I fear, I am deaf but I still hear, I hear the wolf’s haunting calls, I hear the crumbling of far away walls, I hear the wind blowing at a ship’s sails, I hear the doomed souls screaming wails, I hear the blood oozing from an open cut, I hear eyes being opened and shut, I hear the cries of unnamed, I can hear the weeping of the unclaimed, I can hear whispers in a lover’s ear, I can hear the tremble in a voice filled with fear, There is something wrong with me I’m told, I still feel, only with my soul, I feel the hate of the man for the child, I feel the love of the tame for the wild, I feel the rain that falls from the sky, I feel every exhale of breath when you sigh, I feel the clouds gather overhead, I feel the power in the words that God said, I feel the joy in every single thing, I feel the heart in every bird that will sing, I feel the river running over rocks, I feel the companionship of the sheep in flocks, There is a problem with me they say, I see only sorrow as they move away, I hear only apologies as they leave me, I feel only sadness when I know they cannot see.

The blue sparkling sea reflects in her eyes Her lips are like a new summer rosebud Her hair is like the jet black coat of a panther Her skin feels like the finest velvet And is the colour of fresh cream Her cheeks are tinged with rose And she is my soulmate When I look at her I think I'm with an angel Her love surrounds me like a golden aura It will never leave It warms every inch of me It makes me whole Because she is my soulmate When we touch The golden fires of love bond us When we kiss The red fires of passion engulf us I want her Always Every day I wish to be one with her And I will be one day For she is my soulmate She strips me of the barriers I build up She strips me of the clothes that hide the real me And in our naked beauty we will join together God and goddess let it be She is my soulmate

It seems I live in a make believe world, Inside a cage I created with words, A place where sinew is the fabric of time, And the sky is drawn by skeleton birds, I live in a place that doesn’t seem to exist, Where people never relent with my screams, A tomb of negative energy I have built, From the twisted visions in my dreams, Trapped in a cage of anger and fury, The bars buckle under sympathy and distress, Guarded by blood red hounds of hell, Which melt to and from the darkness, My eyes alone hold the story of a pain, I cannot even begin to voice, Disguised in a human skin, In this world devoid of free choice, I have locked myself deep inside, A solitary component surrounded by empty space, Nothing can reach me now, I am hidden behind a glass face, Even my thoughts are not my own, I cannot seem to sleep at night, In fear of dangers that lurk within me, Obscured from my sight, But from within my warped prison, I see the truths of days gone by, I can experience the pain of life, And then long eternally to die, None can understand for I never let them in, I block out all emotion and blank them from my mind, Nothing will ever stop me now, I will move forward and leave everyone behind, There are people, who try to get in, They ask strange questions which I cannot comprehend, They make my cage of words tighter, And make me hunger for the end, Eventually they back off and I am left alone, No one bothers me anymore I have peace at last, I have finally realized I am not alone, We are doomed, damned and outcast

Miles of dust stir before the glowing light, Stars fall from the sky of the blackened night, Angels fly above the heads of the blessed, Hovering over every spot that has been by you caressed. The angels float about night, morning and after day, Singing songs that fade and drift away, Their wings unfold and carry you into their world, Away from twisted trees and leaves that are furled, They came in their numbers to see you, The one that captured there hearts, my heart too, They gave you gifts which you rejected, And made fun of the God they elected. They saw it your true color, underneath your skin, And thought you impure wrapped in sin, They threw you away like an empty shell, Where I caught you and took you to hell, You know live surrounded by the angel’s fears, And wash with the forgotten angels tears, You, and your sin stole my still heart, I fell in love with you and it tore me apart, You looked at me and made me whole, And because of this, I see it fit to steal your soul.

They came in lines of seven or eight, Marching forward towards death’s gate, Their boots trampled through the mud, As they moved past pits of bones and blood, The air was dark as the first line past, Their breaths condensing as they marched fast, The cavalry rode up on black horses behind, Slaughtering the children, the deaf and the blind, Then came the archer’s shooting iron rain, Killing those talking and sparing those insane, Then at the head of the crowd a pale horse came, Its rider was death, the one who held the blame, Next to death came a red warhorse, its screech echoing the army’s call, For the Conqueror sat astride its back, bringing control over them all, And next came a great white horse with silver hooves, That chimed as its rider War moved. Until finally bearing a great black flag and riding Satan’s horse, Came Justice, long cape flowing showing to the others, no sorrow or remorse. And at last they all did pass in time and left this land, Kicking up clouds of dust and dirt and sand. The four horsemen vanished into the night, Along with their army they rode from sight. Until the world was left bruised and sore, In the after math of the thing we call war.

I can’t fly anymore, I was never meant to, I can never soar, With my broken wings, The words I sigh, Are lost in the wind, I cannot reach the sky, With my broken angel wings, The thoughts are turning, Deep inside my soul, Tears in my eyes are burning, Because of my broken wings, Was this meant to happen now? I have cast my ideals aside, I don’t why I am or how, Alone with broken angel wings, To heaven I cannot fly, I am held down by despair, Why do I even try? I have but broken wings, I walk my steps alone, I have nothing, Nothing to call my own, Except my broken angel wings, I have a hole inside of me, It consumes my mind, I cannot fight myself free, Hampered by broken wings, There is no one who will care, Or protect me, From others when they stare, At the angel with broken wings, I live without a spark, Walking in solitude, Treading lightly in the dark, Dragging my broken wings, I can’t fly, I can’t see, I can’t die, I have but broken wings.

She was the one, who waited for me, She waited for me at the edge of the sea, Her skin was as white as snow, And it shined as she waited, for me to show, Her hair was dark as night, And I smiled as I saw her in my sight, She was the one from my mind, She was the one I came to find, She was an angel sent from above, She was the one that I could love. She smiled and reached out to my hand, Her feet making no mark on the golden sand, She seemed to flicker at first glance, But she was real and she asked me to dance, We danced hand in hand until the setting sun, She taught me all about love and gratitude and fun, My hand stroked her midnight hair, She was for all time, my maiden fair, We lay in the sand and stared at the stars in the sky, But as morning approached she had to say goodbye, I was the one that waited for her, Cloaked in mist and wrapped in fur, I was a werewolf born from the night, She was an angel born from the light, She had to go, she had to leave, But I still, completely believe, That she waited for me, On the shores of the dark sea

Gladly I would come to you and I would come willingly within the dark, But it seems that this hell fire love was never meant to be, I know you fear me and would worship me from afar, I realise that you love me and would always give your life for your star, But still I can’t help but wonder at your normal clothes, I can’t help but laugh at the lack of sadistic content, I feel that even though you stay by me you’d never surrender to the night, I realise now that I can never turn you against the light, I thought time would heal you and so I kept you lingering, I thought it would help but it made your wound deeper, Every cut every bruise that you endured sliced into my heart, Every cruel word you ignored pulled us further apart, I would have made you so happy; I would have given you anything, I would have shown you every pleasure you could want, But I guess that you never wanted this thing, my tainted love, You wished for me to spread my wings and fly to the light above, But that could never be but I would have if I were able, But I was bound to the earth by the blood of my victims, This can no longer be real; it must remain an unattainable dream, Listening to our regrets, singing while they scream, A chance happening of a wandering angel, Brought you face to face with me, I bet you wish you had never witnessed that despicable deed, Wished you had never allowed me to reaped like an evil seed, But this is what I am; this is what you are, This is why we can never be as one, From the start of the very first genesis, To the end of my arch nemesis, I kept you hanging by an invisible thread of deceit, I kept you wondering my true intent, I kept you wrapped up safe in a web of sadist lies, Listening and writhing in pleasure from your cries, Believe me when I say I cannot love, for I do not its meaning, I know about hate and pain but about them you are ignorant, How can we be together as opposite as we are? If I were you would you still worship me from afar? If pain was your bondage and I held the whip, would you still love me? If sorrow was your medicine and I was the needle’s chrome blade, Would that you were someone new away from all my hate? Would you leave believing this was not your fate? If I were not the demon I am deep inside would you still fear me? If I were another pitiful whore in your bed would you still worship me? If I was black or red would you hate me for my creed? If I were weak and powerless would you make me bleed? I can’t help but wonder about these things, the things that break my mind, I can help but imagine how many others you’ve had like this, In the blackness of eternal regret, drowning in your kisses of deep despair, Ice cold eyes roving over burning flesh, knife like fingers running through my hair, Erotic fire breathing on my cold skin, shaking the earth to its brittle core, Obsidian caresses curling at my throat, I can’t help but wonder at the irony of it all, Watching as the angels fall, If I were the light instead of the dark would you still want me? If I were the good instead of the bad would you still crave me? I wonder if I didn’t resist could you still call it rape? If I felt angry would you bend me out of shape, If I were different entirely would I still hold your desire, If I were the demon instead of you would I care? I suppose that it the end it did some good, Because now me and you are bound by blood, You are my demon, my devil, my dark despairing lover, You didn’t want me but you had me anyway, And you discovered the demon inside me, You held me tightly all through the night, and you set my darkness free, We can at last be one; we can take on the world, Masking our pain and blackness like you once did, We will crawl into every human’s heart and soul, We will destroy them; kill all that’s whole, Another night will come and with it your nightshade grin, Another flame to add to our passion of fire, But still I wonder what if we never connected together? What if we never found each other? Ever? Would we still wander in the blackness of this void? Pretending that we’re not who we are inside, Wondering about things that we hear and feel and see? Would I still long for you to come and set me free?