DollyDisaster's blog: "Dark Days"

Tomorrow I will wake And I'll despize the dreams I dreamt For every passing day Just brings one more failed attempt At finding meaning in the chaos And the truth unrealised When the meaning's been forgotten And the truth's been compromised I search for salvation At the foot of satan's bed I seek my redemption But find damnation instead I long for some answers But the questions still remain And even in broad daylight All that I can see is pain And my troubles are reflected In my nightmares everynight Demons taunt me in my dreams Until I wake in fright Each night I fight off sleep Until it finally pulls me in And when I think I've seen the worst The real horrors begin And when I think it's over It starts over again The nightmares blend together And it seems there is no end I contemplate an ending To my pain and suffering And yet I fear the darkness I know that it would bring

Falter. fail Falter, fail Scars are covered Pain well hidden Smile empty Souless, dead A self inflicted tradgity Mental warefare with myself Slowly killing Never ending Tourtured prison Falter. fail Falter, fail My mind is All over You made me who I am I never imagined. you reaching for my hand Pushed down Let down Dissapointed all over again My love feels so empty Will I ever feel it again? Falter, fail Falter. fail Over Again and again Falter, Fail Falter, Fail Again and Again Falter. fail Falter, fail Never.. ever AGAIN!! By Dolly Disaster

I remember the first time like it was yesterday I remember how sad I was... I remember the tears I didnt want to shed kept flowing down my face fuck you for making me cry thats what I thought.. I was angry... sooooo angry I needed a release there it was Ohhh I remember the first time.. I never thought that it would make me feel Make me feel this sweet release Something that is supposed to hurt you Well it didnt hurt me.. It was euphoric It was like for a moment.. just a single moment I forgot.. I forgot all those things you said Those words that cut me deeper than I Deeper than I cut myself.. You hurt me.. You alone.. Every one tells a story This is mine......