For those of you who know me fairly well, you should read this. If you don't know me, feal free to read, but don't judge cuz you'll piss me off royaly.
Okay, so, we all know that I got married Aug.12, 2006. We also know from previouse blogs that were deleted, that things turned very sour shortly after. He was a drunkard, a manipulator and turned out to be rather violent. Took a swing at my face over alchohol. So yes, it was bad. I came home to cali with a quickness and filed for divorce. Started hangin out with some really close friends. One of which ended up divorcing his wife for the same reasons I was divorcing my husband. He and I hooked up. After 4 and a half years of knowing each other, it seems perfectly natural. Three days after hoking up with my new bf, I get a message that my husband had died of liver failure. He supposedly picked up a bottle and never let it hit the counter for three weeks strait because he was distraut. Durring this time though, he decided to talk a lot of shit behind my back and screw me over royally. Made me look like a very bad person for leaving. However, the irony in this, is that I had all his email account information and discovered a series of emails that told me...he wasn't all that distraut. He had a girlfriend since January, and I didn't file till the end of Febuary. Yes...so distraut. I am sorry he's died. It's a waste for sure. But I will not feal the guilt that he attempted to bestow upon me. He chose the alchohol over me, and he can not blame it on me. I am still with the man that I hooked up with after filing, and we are doing well, he's understanding of my reservations on certain things, and I appreciate that. If me not fealing as bad as even I thought I would makes me a bad person so be it. I never claimed to be a saint. However, I have claimed to never let a man take advantage of me or do me damage. SO, We'll see. I pray he rests in peace.
