Jump's blog: "Daily Bread"

You fill my Thoughts You fill my Dreams You fill my Desires Yet you do not fill my Arms The distance is Afar Time passes Slow The other end of a Phone And CT are what I Have As time draws Near The distance becomes Clear Waiting for Beauty My One and Only Cutie My smile says it All I'm in Neverland My tinkerbell Awaits 10 Seconds is Heaven

You fill my Thoughts You fill my Dreams You fill my Desires Yet you do not fill my Arms The distance is Afar Time passes Slow The other end of a Phone And CT are I Have As time draws Near The distance becomes Clear Waiting for Beauty My One and Only Cutie My smile says it All I'm in Neverland My tinkerbell Awaits 10 Seconds is Heaven

Why is it that when you are Happy and feel so full of life, that nothing ever gets you down? When you are down and feel lonely, why is it so hard to get back up? I have been on such a high elevation of happiness these past 7 weeks, I can barely contain myself, then, BAM, like a hammer to the forhead I feel myself falling to the ground. Is it that the one person I want to be closest to, is too far away to be close to? A simple voice on the phone, a few words on the internet, an email, anything to turn me back up. Without her for even 8 or ten hours of conscience thought and I feel so alone, yet I know that she is there, in my heart, I can feel it. I spent over 16 months in training and Iraq, was married, and did not feel this alone, of course I thank my Brothers and Sisters in Arms for their steadfast support and companionship during that time. However, I can't stop thinking about her, no matter what the circumstances are, she is always there on my mind, in my thoughts. I feel better just writing my thoughts down, but that too shall pass, again, I head off into the place that is so lonely, LIFE. Maybe I am being selfish, but I want to be with her, near her, somewhere close to her. It's as destiny has called upon us to meet, now what? I guess only the future knows, but I will be responsible for myself and my actions and pursue such wonderful adventures to insure destiny was right.

When one goes on vacation it for the mere result of getting a break from normal hum drum daily life. Well a week in Oregon for me was just that, time spent with an extremely dear friend and so far from hum drum, it was angelic. have never been happier from a one week vacation than this one. From hiking in Oswald State Park, watching American Bald Eagles fly around, seeing the smile on a face after a box of flowers arrive, to 10 seconds when walking through the door.... No one could ask for more. Can life be this simple, I believe it can. Now just a catalyst to propel me into this life, that's all I ask for,one simple catalyst.... I can surely handle this vacationing once a month, but I'm going to be a bit jealous on this one and ask for more, more that one week a month, so how does it come about??? Work, hard work, and I'm sure it will happen. I have fallen and can't get up, not that I want to get up, I want to feel this way for the rest of my life. Only the future will tell if this happens, but I'm smiling on the journey towards this.... More to came......

So I began a discussion this afternoon, stupid me!, about politics while at work. I am in a stoked and happy mood, as I had just had some flowers delivered to a very special person, HUGS Lynda. So this guy asks about life in Iraq as a soldier, goes okay..... then asks some details about deaths, none of which I am willing or going to give out. Then he asks, very pointedly, I might add, "How many more must die, before you learn to drop your weapon and leave?". NO, I did not drop his sorry ass on the spot, I simply informed him as many as necessary to make his sorry ass realize, they are the reason he has the freedom to be stupid in this Great Country of ours. Why would anyone believe that a soldier who volunteered to serve this nation would drop their weapon for fear of dying? Look, I don't want to die fighting for my country, yet I accept that fact should it be the outcome. Don't pity me for my beliefs, just know that I fight and risk my life so you can stand in Anywhere, USA and voice your opinion to our elected officials. I may not like your opinion, but I will defend your right to have that sorry ass opinion. When those that speak, remember to speak for yourselves, not me nor my bretheren in arms, speak only for yourself, for that is the right you are guaranteed. Now back to being extremely happy, it's so close it hurts, a few more days and another adventure begins! See, even an asshole can't sway me from my happiness.

Have you had the feeling that you were acting like a little child? Have you had the feeling that there was something wrong, how could it all seem so right? Have you had the feeling when someone was so excited about something you would do for them? Have you had the feeling that made you happy every moment you took a breath? Have you had the feeling someone was watching over you? Have you had the feeling that your life seemed so complete? I do have that feeling! I enjoy that feeling. I don't want this feeling to ever stop.

Mind is spinning, not out of control, but wildly from thoughts abound. Can a few days of excitement and adventure really do this to one's mind? Can a small adventure lead into more small adventures, over the long run being a Large adventure? I imagine one can only hope, I know I am...... It is so difficult to put down into words what is racing through my mind. I am on like some level I have never been before. I am truly happy all the time, smiling, why? Can one adventure really do this? It must, there is no other explanation for it. Here's to adventure!! HUGGGGGGGS

Picking up a Great Friend at the Airport....... Showing up at a motel, and having your Non-Smoking Room not available.....Going to a new motel, unpacking and leaving so quickly, you don't even know the address.......Leaving a Jolly Roger at Bubba Gump's.........Driving aimlessly around San Francisco looking for your motel that you don't know where you left it........Sharing a bottle of wine with a Great Friend.......Leaving a Jolly Roger at the Motel..... Giving a neck and shoulder massage....... Going to the Golden Gate Bridge and walking it....... Leaving a Jolly Roger on the GG Bridge....... Going wine tasting with your Great Friend in Napa Valley and leaving a Jolly Roger....... Driving around SF looking for your motel........ Sharing a nice lunch/snack with your Great Friend....... Going to a professional baseball game, wondering why there are no cars in the parking lot and looking at your tickets and realize it was a day game, NOT a Night game..... Going to a Karaoke bar and listening to your Great Friend sing (what pipes)....... walking to the motel with your great friend....... Giving a neck, shoulder and back massage...... Hugs....... Cuddling........ Going to the SF Palace of Fine Arts........ Going to the GG Bridge and taking pictures this time....... Laying in the sun at Doggy day Care......... Driving your Great Friend to the Airport..... Sharing a cup of coffee with your Great Friend....... Hugs....... Thinking of your Great Friend wishing for a safe trip........ a Great Friend!