right now i am sitting in a room by myself wondering how i got the way i am and all that come to mind is all the stuff i did wrong and how i could have do things different but i can not now for i made my mistakes and i have to live with them many times i have made mistakes and i have not learned or i have forgotten what i did in the first place cause my mind is not right anymore i may never learn form what i have done i know i have hurt a lot of people and i am sorry for that and i know that in all the time i have been on ct i have made a few friends that are always their for me i am not going to say names but they know who they are and i love them all they are very speacail to me and i love them all as my 23rd birthday comes to be i sit here and wonder where i will be and what will happen to me by my 24 if i make it that long i do not know if i will it is in the hands of fate. and when i think of the mess ups i made i can not help but wonder what i should have done at that time in stead of what i did but their is nothing i can do about that now right? i do not know what 2morow will bring me but i wait for it still with my eyes wide open and my mind the same. but for now i am alone in a room by myself in front of a computer writing this to you all my friends andd family the only friends and family i have. to you all i love you
love always,
Lost In The Dark (albert)
