sweet tart's blog: "Just some stuff I write..."

Holidays should be happy and bright!

RIGHT?

I have amazing people in my life! My family...my friends.....Real people, online people, and real online people!

But nothing is the same...

Will holidays ever be the the same without my Dad?

GODDAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel so lonely without him!!!!!!!!

I ache so!

I want my Daddy back!!!!!!!!!!!!

Will I ever enjoy holidays again?

Will I ever be ME again????????

Someone, anyone....please tell me this will get easier..............PLEASE!

FUCK!!!!!!!! I beg of you.

I have boycotted holidays since his death. ALL holidays!

Just to put up a Christmas tree has taken browbeatings from HELL!

I remember good times with him, always, but on the holidays...DAMN....that doesn't help! I want him here!!!! I want to raise hell at him that he can NOT have sugar then cut him a piece of pie.....I know that is bad...but it was Christmas...he deserved a piece of pie!

Daddy...I miss and love you more than anything in this world. Help me find peace within myself. PLEASE!