chest heaving under heavy pressure mind reeling from so many thoughts wanting to scream yet the voice cant even claw out of the throat so many images crushing the mind so many thoughts cant even tell time clinging on to hope that u will find that one who can help find that calm only to feel that fear well up more when any one trys to get close struggeling DAILY to fight that fear images slaming the head finding courage to admit another is needed and wanted cant show weakness crawling back into the darkness where quiet comfort is so often found