Of course everyone that has grown-up, you start life with crushes and sometimes you with crushes you were never able to make happen to where you two can be together. Sometimes throughout life, you might get to experience what it's like to be with a crush, those who experience it, it's like a dream that you wish you couldn't wake up and wished the dream would go on for all times. Crushes are just that, a temporary dream for your inner-mind. Once you've lived a crush, you will never want to let go and you'll do everything in your power to keep it in your life. You will never want to let it out of your hands and will almost want to die trying. I feel now that I am living a crush come true. Just feel it as a 'GIFT' God has given you for a job well done. God sees those who've done good and he does his best to do what he can for you. Crushes are only temporary and will NOT always stay PERMENANT.... I feel this crush God has made come true for me beings I've always tried to do good for everyone. Be nice and don't always try to expect too much to come out of hard situations. Always do your best, as he is also doing the same. Even though I am living a crush as we speak at this time, I am still not going to give up atleast for another week. I feel that regardless how much I try, I will just get hurt even more. But in my heart right this very second. I can only see myself being with that one person I've had a crush on for the last few years. The harder you try, the worse your going to feel and I am going to prove that to everyone who likes reading what I write. I can't give up on my crush, as anyone would do there best not to as well. Just the circle of life for everyone. Sometimes you get lucky and sometimes you don't, but shit happens... What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger... Remember that for those of you reading this. But regardless, I'm going to re-enlist into the Air Force Reserves this time. However this ends, it's gonna end bad and I'm going to really get my heart broken, but it's already been breaking for quite some time, so oh well... let myself be a lesson for yourself... Don't be stupid... Crushes hurt worse than anything, but be safe and if you wish to try real hard for a CRUSH, I'd say, "GO FOR IT!!!" but that's because I wanted this to happen for so long and it did and now I crashed and burned, no survivors.......especially not my heart... Be safe and do what your heart tells you to do. Jessica didn't want to be with me, or else she would have shown it by standing up for herself... Life restarts now, just becareful on who you give your heart to, cause it might turn out to be a big mistake, but that's a life lesson! Remember that, you live and you learn, that's all anyone could ask for God.... He allowed you to be born, to be loved, but with GOOD, there will ALWAYS be a bad. Whatever doesn't kill you, makes you more strong.......
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