I have learn few things regarding my life with him. We have shared every thoughts, joy, pain, sadness, jokes, heart with all it complicated meanings yet we understand each other.
Every hard times due to our unforgiven past has set us into sweet trouble. But somehow we understand that two different individuals set into one same relationship is the whole meaning of love, itself.
But sometime the love has turn out to be so enormous, I barely cannot hold it alone. It set me trapped into a dependent person.
So I released myself into words and music, and this track is what I felt inside…deep inside.
Cripple and the Starfish by Antony and The Johnsons
(Taken from album Antony, 1998)
Mr. Muscle forcing bursting
Stingy thingy into little me, me, me
But just "ripple" said the cripple
As my jaw dropped to the ground
Smile smile
It's true I always wanted love to be
Hurtful
And it's true I always wanted love to be
Filled with pain
And bruises
Yes, so Cripple-Pig was happy
Screamed " I just completely love you!
And there's no rhyme or reason
I'm changing like the seasons
Watch! I'll even cut off my finger
It will grow back like a Starfish!
It will grow back like a Starfish!
It will grow back like a Starfish!"
Mr. Muscle, gazing boredly
And he checking time did punch me
And I sighed and bleeded like a windfall
Happy bleedy, happy bruisy
I am very happy
So please hit me
I am very happy
So please hurt me
I am very happy
So please hit me
I am very very happy
So come on hurt me
I'll grow back like a Starfish
I'll grow back like a Starfish
I'll grow back like a Starfish
I'll grow back like a Starfish
I'll grow back like a Starfish
I'll grow back like a Starfish
I'll grow back like a Starfish
I'll grow back like a Starfish
Like a Starfish...
