your heaven tonight's blog: "crazy lately"

well this is a blog to help people get too know me better, I work way too hard but know its only going to better myself in the long run. I love my job and Im passionate about it which Im really lucky I could find a job like that so early in life. I love my friends most of them Ive known from elementry and high school when I first moved here from michigan... They are my world even though we have our differences sometimes what friends dont...I've changed so much over the past year...Ive become a much stronger and caring person...Before I didnt really give a fuck about anyone or anything...So thats one change for the better. Okay I've lost intrest in blogging for right now.

Okay so here goes my first blog on the fu...it may not make much sense but it makes perfect sense to me!!! so it just dawned on me that nobobys perfect and everyone has their major flaws...okay well that part is pretty obvious and well known..But it really hit me that Im not always right and Have been a little crazy lately....but so have a lot of people I know...This has entirely nothing to do with my recent situation...the more and more I think about the recent friends Ive made within the past year minus a couple I feel like I either wanna stick to my old friends and shut everyone else out because theyre not worth getting to know or keep a major guard up...its seems like they either just expect me to be easy or unopinionated..thats just not me, Lately Ive gone from being a blunt person to just speaking without thinking and thats not right...hopefully things will heal in time and I can make ammends with the people Ive hurt... Hopefully I can make ammends with people who have hurt me. But thats all easier said than done. Ive accomplished a lot this year but it hurts to say Ive lost a lot at the same time parts of myself that cant be salvaged. Im trying so hard to start a new life and put my past way way behind me that I havent noticed how crazy Ive been lately and how I need to relax and take life one day at a time. I need to value the friendships I have and quit chasing whatever it may be that Im looking for. The past five years of my life Ive felt like I was suffocating. I felt trapt. Ive had a year to get to know myself better and learn a lot of new lessons. Hopefully this time around I wont make the same nieve mistakes and my good friends know exactly what Im talking about...I dont want to be that person anymore and with him I can and will never truely be myself. Well Ill end my first blog on a good note. ... I love my friends...I love my family...no matter what we go through Ill always love you guys youve been there through everything..... but to Chris aka that guy Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck yoooouuuuuuu!